i'm depressed.i dun wana tok but if i dont,den i duno how long will it b until my next entry.they changed the windows today.and i CRIED OUT LOUD WHEN I SAW IT.i hate my window now.i dont wana stay here.i cant even fucking change in my room ne.WHAT THE FUCK.CURTAINS MY FUCKING ASS CAN.i so totallie HATE my room now.i hate it i hate it i hate it.so depressed now. =(physics prac was kinda easy.made afew mistakes but,if there aint mistakes,den i wont b in krss rite? =))and darrdarrhh decided to take the SAF scheme. =)) -PR within 3 yr[i tink]-no need pay poly fees-5 yrs in poly,including NS[but NS get locked up he dun need]-get paid to study-confirm work in SAF for the next 10 yrs.-pay at 8yrs: $5250-can have 10 days leave every MONTH-blahhsurprised y i noe?cuz his fren inside ma.lols.haiis.i'm still depressed.well,tyme for me to go back my nanny's place. =(((- D E P R E S S E D -
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8:55 PM
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
yoz.at aloha playing cs.lols.after soooo long,i'm getting killed so mani tymes.NO FAIR!!!DARRDARRHH BULLY ME!!!!sobbs.never teach me.=((((((((((((ok la.jk la.he's pestering me and saying he got teach me.haha.whining again.lalalalalas.chem prac was kinda easy.but i confirm lost 2 marks cuz i wrote SOLUTION instead of PPT.siannsss.and i didnt write HYDROGEN. =( stupid hor?NOE ITS HYDROGEN BUT DIDNT WRITE. =((oh well.acid is HCl and my value was 23.5 yay!!!ms lee told me tt its ard there.mrs tan say yahh.and the cations are Al and Pb.wh0os.darrdarrhh said tt the 'U' is silver nitrate.wakakakas.stupid sia.where gt ppl noe de?[except him]the 2 classes fooled ard in the bio lab and made sooooo much noise,the tchers SHOUTED at us until she dun wana tok liao.waahahahahahahahahas.anw,the last few days were horrible.I HATE THE FLOOR. =( painpain.and i wana LAUGH!!!someone got into F&N.hahahahahas.KISS SUMMORE LA.yawnnss..i still duno how to play tt warcraft tingy.BUILD WHAT??!!GRRR.dun understand cann?POKEMON SUMMORE?waddahell?oh well.bobianns.ok la.shall go play.its getting INTERESTING.lols.
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4:57 PM
today will probably be the last day u hear from me for the next 3 weeks.i am - D E P R E S S E D -fucked up renovation had to come at this tyme.guess wad period of tyme this is?damn i hate upgrading.jerks.when will s'pore STOP digging?
its noisy,DUSTY,and toiletless. =((i'm moving to my nanny's place tonight so i'm packing my bags now. =((guess wad?i have to sleep on a mattress.ON THE FLOOR.how do u tink I would feel?after 7++ years on the waterbed,i get backaches from sleeping on a normal bed.wad about the floor?this is so depressing.yah i noe i'm spoilt.but the ting is,no matter how u critisise how spoilt i am,it doesnt change the fact tt i cant sleep on the floor.and,i have to wash my own clothes,iron them and everyting.my poor hands.i hate doing household chores.i hate doing my own laundry.i hate it.I HATE IT. =(((i dont mind breakfast on my own though.but i guess lunch n dinner is also on my own. =( i dun wan....SOBS.and then the most depressing part comes along.NO COM FOR 3 WEEKS.can u imagine?can u?CAN U?guess not? ='(((i guess tv is alrite cuz i onlie watch 2 shows.charmed and stairway to heaven.i am depressed.i hate upgrading.i want to be at home.let me cry.i want to cry.
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1:24 PM
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
oh man.duno if i'm LUCKY or FUCKING UNLUCKY.
i killed another cockroach.which was also LAYING EGGS.dammit.actuallie,i caught it after it has laid the eggs but waddahell,it still had eggs bside it.
blahh.packed my rm for the renovation.FUCKERS HAD TO COME WHEN THE OLEVEL PRACTICAL STARTS.grrr.but anw,practical study wad? O_o?
anw,i walked to central with darrarrhh juz nw.my card no money.siannss.we played ard and duno y,he gt EMO.grrrr.I HATE IT WHEN PPL KICK STONES OR BANG ON THINGS WHEN THEY ARE ANGRY.FUCKING PISSES ME OFF.
oh well.i bo bians but to 4give him also rite?hahas.see i soooo nice. =))
then he saw his church pastor and got emo once agn. =/ apparently,there's this dispute between him n his pastor which caused him emotional stress[?].he told me the story and DAMN.NOW I'M THE PISSED ANGRY AGITATED WORKED UP VIOLENT [ok...uncancel everyting i've cancelled.i've run out of words] person.
grrrr.long story.fucking bitch.damn u.u noe wad she told him?she told him to stay away from me BECAUSE I'M NOT A FUCKING CHRISTIAN.damn,hu does she tink she is?he loves ME,not her.
AND, although i'm not a christian,I DONT FUCKING DISCRIMINATE MY FRIENDS OR LOVED ONES BECAUSE OF THEIR RELIGION.with tt,i am anytyme more respected and a better person than the 'loyal follower of the Lord.'
i thought religions r supposed to teach sum1 to be a better person.to let some1 have faith in what seems lyk an endless series of unfortunate events[ohh.i love tt show. <3].FORCE?aint tt going a little way too far?even if i'm not a christian,SHE DIDNT EVEN TRY TO PERSUADE HIM TO ENCOURAGE ME TO GO TO CHURCH.fucker.i have nth against churches.its not as if i will start melting once i step in.i dont have such birth defects.nor will i go in and burn hellnotes to Jesus.*slaps my mouth for saying rude stuffs*probably i'm over reacting.but tt's not the end of her unreasonable actions.because he's my darrdarrhh,we most probably share common habits.and one ting we have in common is the 'HECK CARE ABT PAPERS' attitude.so therefore,his entry proof is TORN,verii badly.at 1st he was thankful[i suppose so.bec i wud be],as he gave a copy of the entry proof to his pastor[actuallie,his pastor wanted it from him.saying it's important].now tt its nearing the exams,he asked a for a copy from her.*disclaimer* he hasnt gone to church for 3 weeks due to the fact tt he's pissed with her for her request to stay away from me.opps?little did he noe tt his pastor REFUSED to give him the copy unless he went to church.so now the importance of the entry proof comes to light aye?SHE IS SO UNREASONABLE.I HAVE NEVER SEEN/HEARD OF SUCH A PASTOR.grrr.i wish tt she will be the onlie pastor tt does tt.she called him up to try to 'persuade' him to go to church[using the entry proof].he explained tt olevels are coming and he would lyk to study.afterall,he's not even baptised[is tt how u spell it?] yet.making a BIG hoohaa,she asked him 'studies more important or God more important?' he got sooo PISSED,and replied 'studies la!!' without hesitation.she rattled on and on,still refusing to give him HIS entry proof.he got so angry,he kupped the call.grrrrrr.i feel angry for him.i wana slap her.he said next tyme she calls,he'll divert the call to me or my mum.WHO0S.SEE HOW SHE DIE IF MY MUMMIE PICKS UP THE CALL.imagine......pastor: helos,is fendy ard?mummie: fendy?no.this is his girlfriend's mother.WHAT DO YOU WANT?WAKAKAKAKAKAKAS.SHIOK.oh boii..i feel so much better letting it out.well,tyme to cook rice. =)) good day. <3FYI: i was baptised when i was born.so i lived 16+ years as a christian although i dont go to church.what makes tt pastor tink she's so 'pure'?going to church doesnt mean she's a faithful follower can?and i thought there's onlie 1 Jesus?so many homes?if tt's the case,i tink i'll prefer him living in my heart instead of a COLD COLD[except sundays] chapel.at least my heart is warm,beating and has a soul.
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6:55 PM
i am bored.although i have tons to do on my 'waiting,waiting and still waiting' list,i dont wana budge.plain LAZY.tt's what i am.i'm not even gng downstairs for food.too tired to walk.besides,its so fucking dusty outside.if i go out,next ting u'll see is a mega huge DUSTBALL[snowball made of dust. =/] cuz dust will settle on me n cover my eyes so i'll have no choice but to roll and more dust collects on me.damn i hate renovations.worse of all,they're doing my place lyk next week.BULL'S EYE. olevels prac.fuckers.grrrrrrrrrr.i am angry angry angry.i want to eat!!!grrrrto add on to my frustrations,i hafta go to sch later.isabel wanted me to help with her chem.haiis.i wish i'm stupid so tt ppl will help me instead.i tink they'd rather ask mike.but he's a guy.soo...me.second but a girl.WONDERFUL.i duno what i'm thinking.i'm gona flunk my exams.I'M SLACKING LYK CRAZY.as if prelims r the last exams i'm gona take.haiis.when will i wake up.i wonder wad will happen if i enter poly.the lessons r so unfixed,i tink i'll stay home the whole yr.speaking of poly,damn i'm saying this the last tyme.5 REASONS Y I WANA CHOOSE NP,NOT SP.1] food.i love the jap food there.no,i'm not crazy,choosing a sch bcus of food.bcus if the food is nt nice,i wont eat.if i dont eat,i'll have no energy.if i have no energy,i wont study.if i dun study,i go there for wad?gam arh?yea.FOOD.a verii imp factor.2] transport.i noe mani ppl r gona say sp is easier to go cuz gt mrt.but i tink otherwise.if i wana go to sp,i'll have to take a bus to central.which is lyk onlie 2 busstops.and no,i dont want to walk cuz clementi is lyk one of the hottest places in s'pore.den i have to waste money n take the mrt for onlie 1 stop.on the other hand,for np,all i have to do is walk to the busstop near the cc,take 1 bus and i'm there.EASIER.save more money summore.3] i noe the place better.cuz we have to go there for projects n courses.i went there lyk duno how mani tymes liaos.but i onlie went to sp once.and the food there gave me a bad impression.so yahh.4]ppl there r more friendly.i duno y but when i went to sp,the ppl ther dao me.damn i hate it.grrrrrrr.but ppl and np treated me nicer.at least they SMILED. =)5]friends.yea u heard me.ok.this is a stupid factor but its also important.if i have no friends there i wud b loney.a loney person is a sad person.a sad person is one who wont study as much.plus.joan's dad is working there.coolness. =))yup2.tt's abt it.ok.i dont feel so bored nw.i tink i'll go dwn for lunch.since the renovations has stopped for lunch break.=D
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1:03 PM
this is the third tyme i'm trying to blog.i'm getting frustrated.
the 1st tyme i tried,my page went missing.the second tyme i tried,my com restarted w/o notice.dammit.grrrrr.
as i was TRYING to say,i've been busy recently.
either with sch,hw[as if i'd do rite?] and his parents.ohh boii.they r so funnie. =D
i had this nitemare some nites ago. =(( i dreamt tt i had a fight with darrdarrhh n he used a knife to stab me.i'm not saying he will but we kinda had a silghtly heated arguement juz b4 i slept.so anw,back to my nitemare.he stabbed my shoulders and went on to my leg.i felt PAIN ok!!but i found out tt it was a muscle cramp later on.
i told him tt it hurt and he went thru a series of his usual "sorrii sorrii sorrii.pain ma?sorri sorrii sorrii." better still,i 4gave him lor.hardly see me so nice rite?yup2.i walked home and happened to look over my shoulder.i was wearing my sec3 camp t-shirt and my blood was the same colour as the shirt.wtfwtfwtf.
i reached home and saw mum reading 2 smses.but they werent on the hp.she read it from a piece of paper.she didnt understand and i started hollering at her.den she looked at me closely and gave a blur look and said "u ok ma?"
wa piangs.weird la.i got stabbed and still can WALK home worrhhs.pro ritee?and hor and hor,i was looking thru ppl's frenster ytd and came across this pic. EEEEW.YUCKS.PUII.CHEAP.
ok la.partiallie cuz i dun lyk her.eew.cheap.xiasuay women on earth.better still,i was looking thru her profile.she said she hates copycats,blah blah blah and her last sentence was "basically ppl who offend me" [p.s her spelling sucks.this is written in my own way of spelling.] and in actual fact,she never had tt until i wrote tt later on.tok abt hating copycats huh?worse still,almost everyting is copied in her own way of spelling.major spellin problem.god bless ur english exam.
back to the pic.i have nth against kissing ur bf/gf.but cant ppl do it more discretly?its as if u wan the whole world to noe u smooched him.nth glam abt tt.from wad i noe,they're tgr for hardly 2 mths and they kissed each other on the lips.lyk dun u find urself desperate?even is u reali have to,u dont have to use DIGITAL CAMERA to take a pic of u smooching rite?its so obvious u POSED for a kissing picture. -bo liao,desperate,degrading yourselves.-go take a neoprint if ur're so desperate.to think u can decorate ur pics but cant edit ur contrast.the pics are practicallie BLACK.dont u tink u're stupid?take a pic so tt it is dark and no 1 can see the contents.DEN DUN PUT ON FRIENDSTER LA.dumb,dumb and dumb.darrdarrhh once called me laopo.when i told my mum,she scolded me lyk mad.when she explained it,i realised that mayb we shouldnt call each other tt.but tt's between us.the bottom line is,wadeva u wana do in ur private life,dont show it to the world.using a digital cam to take pics of u smooching is disgusting.plus,u might[in her case,WILL] break up.u dont want memories of both of u behaving so intimatly rite?bring back old memories for wad?plain stupidity.wedding pictures are so much different.if by ur wedding tyme both of u dont smooch den sth is wrong.but less den 1-3 mths?aint u guys a lil too fast?not scared of aids?blahhs.anw,i'm helping charis do her blog.so i'll be missing agn.still the same skin but different layout.yup2.went to SAJC ytd.yawnssss.damn tiring.actuallie,duno y we go also.next yr moving liaos we do see the old building. -_-"met up with charis,adabelle n lizhen.took a bus there and walked ard.listened to the 校长's speech.met up with bing heng and guanbin.but guanbin had to leave earlier.den we met chau and mike.lim came later on.kok kun was lyk so late,i tink he came for the closing of the open house.went to ikea to eat.actuallie wanted to play pool.but was too tired.so decided not to.I WANA EAT THE MEATBALLS. =Ddinner tyme soon.WINE!!!WINE!!![it doesnt have to b a special day to drink wine rite?]kkies.shall stop here.i tink i'm gona do charis's blog agn later.tatahhs.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
6:05 PM
my japanese name is...中村 Nakamura (center of the village) 弓美 Yumi (beautiful bow, as in bow and arrow) wa?
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11:27 AM
i'm back fr m'sia.happily makan-ing there.wakakakakas.anw,abt ytd,i kinda 4got some tings.so i'm here to fill it in. =))b4 everyting,darrdarrhh n i went to get my eyebrows done.den we played POOL!!!heheheheesss..so fun.I CAN FINALLIE BREAK THAT STUPID TRIANGLE.budden hor..aft afew rounds i cannot liaos.hahahasden we took a bus to harbour front.we met his bro there.bought chocolates for his parents and started to WAIT.apparently,there was some event going on and techno songs were being played.so happened tt they played 'chicken little''s theme song.and guess wad?DARRDARRHH STARTED TO DANCE ARD LYK THE CHICKEN.WAKAKAKAKAKAKAKASSSS.damn cute la i tell u.shake n shake.teeheehees.guess wad?we waited for so long,the damn ting repeated for 3-4 tymes.from cascada's song to some songs tt i never heard b4.3-4 TYMES OK.and hor,he n his bro have some kinda CHARM lehh.whoos.buay tahan.*kapiak* they're brothers rite?lols.and hor and hor,his daddy look lyk the show '真情' de datuk lehhh!!!!!!realii look lyk lorrr!!!!!!omgomgomg!!!!!his mummie looks lyk my nanny.omgomgomg.so anw,gng sentosa tmr.hahahas.tyme for BED!!!GOOD NIGHTS!!
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9:08 PM
yoyos.ytd was T-I-R-I-N-G.lyk totallie.their filght was delayed so we waited for 5 whole hrs.but his bro more poor ting.6hrs.wow?so i reached hm at abt 10-11 plus.damn tired.they're nice ppl.hehehes.and they have a cute slang.waakakakakakas.damn cute i tell u.half the tyme i duno wad they tokin abt.or rather,i duno how to answer them.but i tink i'll get used it.gng out with them on monday.omgomgomg.how?wear waD?lols.hmms.gng m'sia later.MAKAN.lols.shall go change.tatahhas.
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1:23 PM
i've onlie gt half an hour to blog.tv starts at 9pm.tyme nw,8.26pm.went to science center today.damn fun i tell u.esp when a big grp of ppl r fooling ard tgr.muahahahahahas.we went crazy aft sch today.sat at the foyer and waited for mrs sudheeren.we all sat in a circle and started teasing joyce.hahahahahas.and i found out tt when the cockroach lays a shell,there r 16 eggs inside.EEEW GROSS.she also said tt the shell is strong enuf to withstand the pesticide.damn i should have crushed it.lols.aint i curel?so anw,back to science center.we borded the bus with alot of laughing gas,nonsense gas,noisy gas and depriving childhood gas.hahahahahahahaswhen we reached science center,we were all so fasinated by everyting,moving or not.hahahas.seriously,we're deprived of childhood when we're all put tgr.teeheeheees.the optical illusions were awsome!!everyting was awesome.and we were on tv!!!!no la.the science center tv.there's this room for media ting.kinda fun.esp when there's alot of ppl.there were camera ppl,the hosts,n the stars.hahahahahs.we took a shadow with mrs sudheeren.there's this place where u can freeze ur shadow.hahahahas.after much habahaba,we decided to move on and go to the omnimax theater.bought sweets and water on the way.the show was entittled 'fighter pilot.B-O-R-I-N-G. this is the 1st tyme i slept during an omnimax show.damn sians.den i went on a simulation ride.lols.cool.darrdarrhh came and 'picked me up'.den he sent me home.OH NO.TMR IS MY JUDGEMENT DAY.HOW?better slp early.if not got eyebags den -DIE-bb.end -8.45pm-
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8:45 PM
Thursday, October 06, 2005
i killed a life today.i have become what everyone calls, a MURDERER.it all happened to quickly.i didnt know how to react.all i wanted to do was to protect myself.she was a threat.and i grabbed the poison near me.spraying the poison,she rolled on the ground,struggling for dear life.it was then i realised that she was going through what every mother has to,GIVE LIFE.i became more flustered.i sprayed more poison on her.she laid on her back,arms and legs moving about vigorously in the air,as if a string would pull her out of the pool of poison.with her body drenched in poison,she did not struggle as much anymore.instead she just kept still,waiting for her loved ones to come out.i have sinned.not only did i kill 1 life,i killed many lives.but i have no regrets.i am not at fault.i did it for SELF-DEFENCE.i'm sorry i killed your family.but you all deserve to die.i kept your body there,covered under a plastic container.i stayed out the whole day,only returning when my parents finished work.mum cleared away your body without any sorrow.i guess that proves that all of you should perish.but you will never.suriving through the ice-age,your species will never be extinct.but one day,i inspire to kill all of you!!for i,have killed one of your kind today!!DIE COCKROACHES!!!DIE~~lols.
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8:27 PM
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
i'm home.muahahahahahas.released at 1210 today.u jealous? =Pactuallie i can come home at 940 de.budden mrs soh wanted me to stay for physics.SIANNSSS.oh well.gng out with darrdarrhh later.muahahahahaaaass. =Pkkies.bb. =)))
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
1:41 PM
tmr getting back the results slip.siannnssss
anw,did chemy flame test today.SO PRETTY!!!pretty colours. =))OH NO.HIS PARENTS,AUNT AND COUSIN WILL BE HERE ON SATURDAY!!!!how???wad to wear?wad hair to tie?make up or not?wad shoes to wear?wad necklace to wear?wad kinda bracelet to wear?wad about my precious earings?which bag to take along?how to address them?behaviour?OH NO!!!HOW?!HOW?!HOW?!STRESS!!STRESS!!STRESS!!how will they look lyk?r they nice?fierce?will they lyk me?wad if they dont?does he look lyk them?OH NO!!!!HOW?!HOW?!HOW?!STRESS!!STRESS!!STRESS!!ok.i'm siao.ignore me. =Pand den hor,onlie the 2 of us will be picking them la.MORE STRESSED!!HOW?!HOW?!HOW?!STRESS!!STRESS!!STRESS!!i noe they wont eat me,but......................and den i cant go to the wedding and house warming.will they tink i'm proud?OH MY F*CKING GOODNESS.CHOCOLATE FUDGE!!!=(HOW?!HOW?!HOW?!STRESS!!STRESS!!STRESS!!
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
9:29 PM
Saturday, October 01, 2005
n btw,HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY.
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11:08 PM
GOOD MORNING TO ONE AND ALL!!!!i just woke up my piggy ahhdearr.wakakakas.PIGPIG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =pdidnt manage to blog ytd cuz my comp went siaosiao.siansss.....anw,i watched CORPSE BRIDE with darrdarrhh ytd.hahaha so cute.I CAN REMEMBER THE WEDDING VOWS!!!who0s.den darrdarrhh was lyk reciting the damn ting whole day thru.even infront of my mummie. -_-"guy: With this hand, I will lift your sorrows. Your cup will never empty, for I shall be your wine. With this candle, I will light your way through darkness. With this ring, I ask you to be my wife.gal: I do.wa.so baised.the guy so long den the girl onlie 'i do' lols.its quite a cute show.but the animation kinda sucks.hmms.not the animation but the characters themselves.oh well.aft the movie we walked ard and bumped into steven.walaos.Nlevels on mon still can play DDR. PRO!!!! guys,when will they stop being childish?den we went to IMM to meet my mummie.hmpf.mummie gave him a KISS!!!hmpf.aft we sent him hm,mummie n i went to harbour front.pick daddie up den go makan agn.who0s.i'm becoming some kinda food bin. ~_-"blahh.gng meet charis nw.chem prac...siianssss..........bb. =))
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7:49 AM
