- ii justt needd somee timee. *

i want to dance beside a frozen lake :: where the snowflakes gently fall from the sky :: the hair swaying in the chilly wind :: as the still moments of the winter everning :: is enlightened by me ::

My Contradictions.

- SEVENTEEN yet EIGHTEEN.
- SOPHISTICATED yet SIMPLE.
- WILD yet TAME.
- CRAZY yet NORMAL.
- BITCHY yet KIND.
- SLUTTISH yet DEMURE.
- FRANK yet SHY.
- CHILDISH yet MATURE.
- DEVILISH yet ANGELIC.
- NARCISSISTIC yet SELFLESS.
- CONFUSED yet SURE.
- FICKLE yet CONSISTENT.
- SELFISH yet GIVING.
- FIERCE yet GENTLE.
- ANNOYING yet LOVABLE.
- HEARTLESS yet SENTIMENTAL.
- SCHEMING yet NAIVE.
- LAZY yet HARDWORKING.
- RETARDED yet INTELLIGENT.
- IGNORANT yet KNOWLEDGEABLE.
- UNFEELING yet CARING.
- SLOPPY yet TIDY.
- IMAGINATIVE yet REALISTIC.
- PESSIMISTIC yet OPTIMISTIC.
- INTROVERTED yet EXTROVERTED.

My Loves.

- ME.MYSELF.I.
- MONEY.
- COMPUTER.
- HAND PHONE.
- CAMERA.
- CHILDREN.
- MIRRORS.
- MAKE UP.
- BITCHING.
- GOSSIPING.
- CRITICIZING.
- SLACKING.

My Hates.

- BEING BROKE.
- BEING SCOLDED.
- BEING BACKSTABBED.
- EMPTY VESSELS.
- HYPOCRITES.
- REPEAT OFFENDERS.
- COMPUTER BREAKDOWN.

My Tagboard.

My Archives.

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January 2006

February 2006

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April 2006

May 2006

June 2006

July 2006

August 2006

September 2006

My Links.

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-=| Steven. |=-

-=| Wan Juan. |=-

-=| Weng Lum. |=-

-=| Xia Xue. |=-

-=| Yvonne. |=-

I Love You.

We never really noticed each other.
Or at least I never noticed you.
But now you are my fantasy.
My wonderful dream come true.

Your eyes met mine.
And mine met yours.
The story of Sleeping Beauty.
Riding on a horse.

Often I think of you.
And wonder if you think of me.
I just want to be there with you.
Through times of thick and thin.

Many a time I neglected you.
But you never seem to mind.
You're one in a million.
Once in a lifetime.

When you smile.
It's the greatest prize.
I'm in heaven.
I'm in paradise.

When I close my eyes.
I see your face.
The touch of your hands.
And the way you embrace.

If I'm in trouble.
All I need to do is call.
Cause I know you'll be there for me.
I know you'll catch me if I fall.

You shine like a lighthouse.
And you showed me the light.
And then I see that life.
Is not only black and white.

I believe in love.
The everlasting kind.
But true love and lust.
Are separated by a mere thin line.

I love you for who you are.
For everything you say.
And no matter what happens.
You will never be replaced.

So now you know my feelings for you.
Is not like eating jam and toast.
Our fairytale is full of love.
It's called Amor Infinitus.

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c0pyyrighttedd ; [-gabrielle-]

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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

i realised tt i actuallie have many ppl by my side!!!

although 2 ppl who were important in my life at a point in tyme were lost,i gained alot back.when i met up with jess ytd,i really felt the bond there.even though we've both changed in apperance,our hearts were still as one.

when i met up with joan,i still feel tt friendship.although i always make the choice n "force" her to follow,she doesnt say anyting.but most of the tyme,great minds think alike.so it doesnt matter anyway.hahahas.

and i got myself a "laogong" although its fake and i haven reali met him,we're still friends.i met him thru fw.my sch guy.ok fine,mayb he's abit ahbeng and all,but doesnt mean ahbengs are bad ppl.dont streotype.i hate ppl who do tt.

plus,my baobei kor james!!hahas.while tokin to him ytd,i realised tt there r better guys ard.and tt i shouldnt cling on to my past dream of an everlasting r/s.ppl come and go.if fate permits,they come back.lyk jess n joan. =D

and justin.mayb i underestimated him.i never knew tt he could tolerate me.cuz i'm fussy,bitchy,crazy.and thru experience,sweet mouths usually cant tolerate my nonsenses.but oh well.i'm still trying to be nice and to let go of misunderstandings.but being human,i cant.

and there's steven jie.he helped me to get over him.tt phrase really helped me alot.although its simple,it has alot of worth.i noe he tried to sound religious at a point in tyme.but when we are at a dead end,besides tilting ur head to heaven and God,we can make miracles happen.

i dont mean to sound offensive.but the reason y i refused to have a religion is because i feel tt i can count on myself.to me,there is God out there,somewhere.and religions are just the different forms tt God takes to approach different ppl.languages are made by humans,so are religions.

the real God is ourself.if u dont allow ppl to do tings to u,then it wont happen.y must we blame God and fate when we can control our own life?y look up to some1 when we can be them in tyme to come?there is no impossible in this world.there is only want or dont want.

ok.i wont get moody and all. =P

chatting with my new laogong,whom i decided to call hubby instead cuz jess is laogong,has been so much fun today!!hehehehes.our conversation was totallie CRAPP!!!!take a look...

click to enlarge. i noe its not my style to be able to click on pics,but the words too small.if u wan the kick,read the converse instead. =P

and walao eh.while walking thru imm juz now,all those 20+ men were lyk tryin to flirt n get fresh.eew.but most of them,or rather all have cars lehh.omgomgomg.lols.all except this guy hu's the same age as me.

omg.tt lil boi is an ass sucking jerk i tell u.i was with my mum,looking at the v-soy ting.he was supposed to ask me some survey ting.but guess wad's his 1st sentence? "ehh.u got bf ma?" i tot tt was part of the survey.so i said no.den his next sentence was "can give me your number?"

DOTS!!!MY MUM WAS RIGHT BESIDE ME.and den he tired so hard to get me to write my number on the survey form.when i refused,he tore the lucky draw ting and gave it to me.till then,he was till trying so hard saying "ehh.shake hands lehh."

and being the guaiilan kia i am,i juz turned ard n walked away.serve him right.ASSHOLE!!hahahahas.

anw,back to the guys with cars!!most of them r the lux vacumme promoters.so funni sia.they were all stunned to see me walking there.1 of them stared at me n i stared back.so he was lyk "wad?y see me until lidat?" hahas.when i kept walking ard,they came n toked to me even more.

then the talkative 1 came.he wanted to buy me coffee.but i just ate burger king.so i sat there while he drank his cup of coffee.and i guess i've been in sales a lil too long.after toking for a while,i diverted him to the robomop ting.LOLS.so he actuallie wanted me to go try out on thurs nite.but i'm abit lazy and all.

and for trying out,he's giving me their teeshirt to wear.as if i join liao. -_-" but i guess i wont be going.seriously tired of sales.and their product is lyk $1000-$2000.ya,the commison will probably be higher,but its tiring la.

if all goes well,i'm gona buy the newspaper tmr.I WANA WORK IN A BRIDAL SHOP.no,not as model la.i noe i short.but u noe?the type tt mends the gowns and helps customers try on.omgomgomg.i'm fasinated by gowns.yea.i hope all goes well!!!

yea.and i wont meet those flirtish,car driving men.cuz men hu go there r getting MARRIED.wakakakakas.

i'm toking to my hubby now n he's complaining tt ppl r trying to snatch his wife,yours truly.but i guess they wont.cuz i verii zaii de ok. =P den hor,his pic verii dao.sec3 de pic.walao eh.

when i 1st saw him i was lyk "OMG.AHBENG." but toking to him didnt sound veri bengish and lianish.so i guess he's ok.HAHAHAS.

goodness.look at the tyme.1.45am.i totallie need slp.

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