- ii justt needd somee timee. *

i want to dance beside a frozen lake :: where the snowflakes gently fall from the sky :: the hair swaying in the chilly wind :: as the still moments of the winter everning :: is enlightened by me ::

My Contradictions.

- SEVENTEEN yet EIGHTEEN.
- SOPHISTICATED yet SIMPLE.
- WILD yet TAME.
- CRAZY yet NORMAL.
- BITCHY yet KIND.
- SLUTTISH yet DEMURE.
- FRANK yet SHY.
- CHILDISH yet MATURE.
- DEVILISH yet ANGELIC.
- NARCISSISTIC yet SELFLESS.
- CONFUSED yet SURE.
- FICKLE yet CONSISTENT.
- SELFISH yet GIVING.
- FIERCE yet GENTLE.
- ANNOYING yet LOVABLE.
- HEARTLESS yet SENTIMENTAL.
- SCHEMING yet NAIVE.
- LAZY yet HARDWORKING.
- RETARDED yet INTELLIGENT.
- IGNORANT yet KNOWLEDGEABLE.
- UNFEELING yet CARING.
- SLOPPY yet TIDY.
- IMAGINATIVE yet REALISTIC.
- PESSIMISTIC yet OPTIMISTIC.
- INTROVERTED yet EXTROVERTED.

My Loves.

- ME.MYSELF.I.
- MONEY.
- COMPUTER.
- HAND PHONE.
- CAMERA.
- CHILDREN.
- MIRRORS.
- MAKE UP.
- BITCHING.
- GOSSIPING.
- CRITICIZING.
- SLACKING.

My Hates.

- BEING BROKE.
- BEING SCOLDED.
- BEING BACKSTABBED.
- EMPTY VESSELS.
- HYPOCRITES.
- REPEAT OFFENDERS.
- COMPUTER BREAKDOWN.

My Tagboard.

My Archives.

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April 2005

May 2005

June 2005

July 2005

August 2005

September 2005

October 2005

November 2005

December 2005

January 2006

February 2006

March 2006

April 2006

May 2006

June 2006

July 2006

August 2006

September 2006

My Links.

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-=| Blogger. |=-

-=| Brenda. |=-

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-=| Claudia. |=-

-=| Darren. |=-

-=| Desmond. |=-

-=| Eleanna. |=-

-=| Eugene. |=-

-=| Fatin. |=-

-=| Fiona. |=-

-=| Gabriel. |=-

-=| Hazwan. |=-

-=| Huang Zhi. |=-

-=| Jasmine. |=-

-=| Jessica. |=-

-=| Jiaxin. |=-

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-=| Joni. |=-

-=| Joyee. |=-

-=| Kenneth. |=-

-=| Phyllis. |=-

-=| Rhoda. |=-

-=| Rosalind. |=-

-=| Saky. |=-

-=| Shahidatul. |=-

-=| Siti Adawiyah. |=-

-=| Steph. |=-

-=| Steven. |=-

-=| Wan Juan. |=-

-=| Weng Lum. |=-

-=| Xia Xue. |=-

-=| Yvonne. |=-

I Love You.

We never really noticed each other.
Or at least I never noticed you.
But now you are my fantasy.
My wonderful dream come true.

Your eyes met mine.
And mine met yours.
The story of Sleeping Beauty.
Riding on a horse.

Often I think of you.
And wonder if you think of me.
I just want to be there with you.
Through times of thick and thin.

Many a time I neglected you.
But you never seem to mind.
You're one in a million.
Once in a lifetime.

When you smile.
It's the greatest prize.
I'm in heaven.
I'm in paradise.

When I close my eyes.
I see your face.
The touch of your hands.
And the way you embrace.

If I'm in trouble.
All I need to do is call.
Cause I know you'll be there for me.
I know you'll catch me if I fall.

You shine like a lighthouse.
And you showed me the light.
And then I see that life.
Is not only black and white.

I believe in love.
The everlasting kind.
But true love and lust.
Are separated by a mere thin line.

I love you for who you are.
For everything you say.
And no matter what happens.
You will never be replaced.

So now you know my feelings for you.
Is not like eating jam and toast.
Our fairytale is full of love.
It's called Amor Infinitus.

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c0pyyrighttedd ; [-gabrielle-]

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Thursday, January 19, 2006

i was looking thru the newspaper for a job.yes,i noe its and unearthly hour of nearly 1am and i cant call to make appts,but just browsing thru.

i realised tt my focus drifted off to the sales section.

since young,i've had different ambitions.1st was to be a voice actress.but then i waved tt tot aside cuz the entertainment sector is a complicted,bitchy and fake place.having experienced it as a child,i was partly influenced to have an ambition being a voice actress.my mum was a producer and she made me call this uncle "daddy" in an advertisment once.

due to my background,i was so delighted to have a "daddy".even after the shoot i was calling him daddy.then my mum scolded me.and i was shocked.i was only about 5.i didnt understand wad was acting.i just followed wad my mum told me to say.it was really stupid of me.

but then i realised how fake the actors seem after each shoot.the way they smile,talk and even laugh.although a small part of me still clings on to tt childhood ambition,i've decided not to even try and touch it.

wanting to be police,nurse,doctor,lawer is almost every young one's dream.but i guess most of us grow outa it huhs?so did i.

afew days ago,i was thinking of working in a bridal shop.the type tt helps the bride to change,choose their gowns and stuff lyk tt.but now,i dont want it anymore.y look at someone do it,when i can be a bride myself someday?silly old me.

today,while tokin to mum,i had the urge to be a pre-sch or montessori tcher.i love working with kids and joyce once said tt if i dont be a tcher,it wud be such a pity.i was so enthu abt it.the dream of being with kids might come true.

it weird,but everytyme i'm with a kid,its shortlived.nichlos, sara, hazirah, estella, julian,all of them.i just dont understand y.everytyme i bond with a kid,we're seperated.i hate tt feeling.i love kids.but from wad i hear,most ppl who r crazy over and love kids alot,cant usually have kids.due to internal problems.sighh.

but then,after reading the papers,i finally know my true interest.SALES.be it indoor, outdoor or just a telemarketer.i was reading thru the teaching and admin section,but i unknowingly flipped to the sales.and before i knew it,most of the jobs i circled are under the sales section.

its weird.mayb i've been doing it for too long and i cant resist my pay.but sales is risky,yet elegant.its not just only about the pretty face or stylish clothes.its more about the personality.during tt short 1month of working with uncle richard,i learnt tt apperance doesnt really matter.

he dresses lyk a pasar malam uncle,but still manages to close afew deals.i woke up late several tymes n 4got my make up,but i still made it.1 of my colleagues dresses quite well,with make up.but she hardly closes a deal.unless its a super easy customer.the type tt "says 2 sentences and they buy".

of course i'm still young and should try other jobs.but mayb next tyme.

i'm just glad i realised my interest at such a young age.maybe matteo was right afterall.this is my talent,i'm born with it.i should use it and be happy.y settle for sth where i have "interest" but no talent?

i used to think physics and chemistry were my interest,my passion.but i'm wrg.they're just second to sales.i love toking,interacting with total strangers.i always say i'm weird.i cant get along with my age grp ppl.duno y.

well,its getting damn late.nearly 2am now.i'm glad i remember wad i wanted to say.hehehes.

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