i was looking thru my old pictures ytd nite.
and then i came across a folder "darrdarhh and ii".i felt so empty..
i dont deny tt i miss him.i mean,with a r/s lyk ours,who wont?we dont hate each other,we sorta still lyk each other,and we had a big quarrel over nth.its just weird la ok?
probably the breakup strained our moods abit.ok fine,ALOT.and the quarrel was stupid.it was not over a guy,girl or being homosexual.we juz quarrelled while chatting happily.well,it started from there at least.
blahblahblah.had this sudden thought cuz i was in NP with terrible period cramps.all because of tt joyce la!hmpf.stop sticking so close to me!!!!hahahahas.jkjk.
my intention was to ask fendy np where got panadol.duno y i tot of him,i just did.but joyce made it sound lyk some tragic drama.he almost rushed down la. -.- its very nice of him but still......
anw,while lookin thru the pictures,i realised i look very tootsie in most of them.lyk some aunty or sth.cuz i was mostly dressed in tshirts n such.i dont noe if i should post them,cuz they r rather outdated and i look super ugly.
and then i read thru the lyrics of "goin' crazy" by natalie and everyting started sinking in.i had the song n lyrics posted in my other blog.redundant to say it cuz many duno the other blog.wadeva.u duno,not my problem.
ok,enough of "the good old days".went to sp with joyce to get her enrollment done.they got this student card ting.and u need it to go to the 4th lvl.so i was left alone sumwhere.but not long after,my saviour came.
yong da was alone,so i schemed to sneek into the 4th lvl with him.wahahahas.i did make it but didnt manage to find joyce.accompanied him to get his new laptop.siala,i wan it!!but daddy says tt np's terms n conditions r much better den sp.
sianz.so i'm gona get an acer instead of a fujitsu.
tt silly boy wans to challenge me in DOTA.wahahahaha.i only played it TWICE.without proper training.i cfm lose de ma.any experts wana teach me?anw,even if there are,i have no tyme these days.BUSY BUSY BUSY.
with admin stuffs,buying stuffs and just sleeping.seriously,i'm worn out by just buying and walking.it hurts my heart to give away money lor.afterall,its my parents money.not tt they're poor,but money issues r rather tight esp with sch fees n laptops.
unless i'm a richass,which unfortunately i'm not,i dun really spend tt much.mayb i did once while shopping with aunty judy.speaking of which,MAN,she's a certified shopping guru.i almost spent my one month's allowance in 1 day!!!!
anw,money i spent are my own hard earned money.ok la,i koped abit from my allowance to keep up with the momentum a lil.i wont say its fun shopping,just rather enjoyable.but wad i really enjoy is the tyme spent with old frens.
probably they're the same old sec sch frens,but if i dun grasp tt opportunity now,i may never have it anymore.cuz in poly,they'll find new pals and such.esp when i'm in a total diff faculty from all of them except joan.
unique ma!!!
i noe joan n i will last.this bond is just unbreakable.cuz she wont hurt me lyk many others.she's genuine.she wont make use of me or try to break me using underhand methods.even if we aint gd frens anymore,she wont hurt me.and i will never either.
i dont noe why she's different.she just is.i wont even start a quarrel with her intentionally.we do bicker,but its abt movies and analogies.no harm anw.
i was watching grey's anatomy.its really amusing how good frens can juz call each other horrific names! yang called grey a "slutty mistress" and grey called yang a "pregnant whore".hehs,when will i find a fren lyk tt huh?
poh hwee once said tt it would be fun to call his girlfriend "siao eh".lols.i do agree.rather loving but in a "siao" way. lalalalalas.
oh i digress,back to my day.
after sp,we went to np.by then i was already in pain n need of a pad.forced myself there cuz i needed to get tings done.ok la,its not really important but still.met chuanlinn,ros,huangzhi and weizhen there.
tired out the LABCOAT and signed up for LSCT FOC!!!yays.i feel lyk i already belong there even though i haven done the enrollment ting.will be paying my fees tmr and e enrolling tmr as well.
my leader for the explorers ting was there.and he remembered me!awws.i feel honoured.gracia was there too.she was lyk "hey,u remember me??" while waving hands frantically.i went "oh yah!!gracia rite?"
could tell tt they were rather amazed by my memory.but i remember her cuz,well,i just remember her la.dont u tink gracia kinda sounds lyk gabrielle?hahahas.actuallie i had an impression cuz she was always wearing super short shorts and skirts.
if i didnt recall wrongly,she had purple toe nails.lols.
by then i was already almost dying of pain.decided to go library to get a hotdog and hot chocolate.but didnt finish the hotdog cuz i was almost in tears.was in desperate need of panadol.my supreme saviour,my giver of life,my lord!lols.
forced my way out of the library as it was closing.asked for directions and holy moly,the girl was kind enough to give me panadol!yays!i went to atrium n ate the panadol.at last,my pain was gone.my parents came to pick me up and we ate dinner after sending joyce home. =D
anw,while waiting for joyce this morning,some lady came to me.i duno how to explain it la.she wanted money to see a doctor at the polyclinic.i only had $4.so mayb i'm stupid but she was really burning and her face was pale yet red.i gave the $4 to her
i dont know wad to say la.i brought her there but the damn polyclinic needed ic.she's kind i guess.cuz i drawed $20 infront of her while going to the polyclinic.but all she asked was if i could help.when i told her i needed to eat,she said "nvm,i will find a way.God bless u."
did my "good deed" earn me 2 panadols when i was in desperate need?
i duno.God or no God,thanks for the panadol.i didnt get the girl's name,but thankyou.if u happen to noe me n read my blog.which i highly doubt so la.lols.
so tt's roughly my day.and i had a nice sms chat with poh hwee.hahas.gogogo!!! 3 months and u can be a normal solider. =)))
i'm still having slight cramps though i just another another 2 panadols.panadols remind me of fendy and how i went crazy in the past.hurhurs.very precious memories to be kept with me.i once heard "the most painful thought aint about u leaving me,but of the memories we once had."
he didnt leave,but well,just an analogy.
after typing for so long,i have no pictures.i shall just randomly post 1 from the old hard disc.i look crappy in it.
yes the light shines on me. =) i love panadols.
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