- ii justt needd somee timee. *

i want to dance beside a frozen lake :: where the snowflakes gently fall from the sky :: the hair swaying in the chilly wind :: as the still moments of the winter everning :: is enlightened by me ::

My Contradictions.

- SEVENTEEN yet EIGHTEEN.
- SOPHISTICATED yet SIMPLE.
- WILD yet TAME.
- CRAZY yet NORMAL.
- BITCHY yet KIND.
- SLUTTISH yet DEMURE.
- FRANK yet SHY.
- CHILDISH yet MATURE.
- DEVILISH yet ANGELIC.
- NARCISSISTIC yet SELFLESS.
- CONFUSED yet SURE.
- FICKLE yet CONSISTENT.
- SELFISH yet GIVING.
- FIERCE yet GENTLE.
- ANNOYING yet LOVABLE.
- HEARTLESS yet SENTIMENTAL.
- SCHEMING yet NAIVE.
- LAZY yet HARDWORKING.
- RETARDED yet INTELLIGENT.
- IGNORANT yet KNOWLEDGEABLE.
- UNFEELING yet CARING.
- SLOPPY yet TIDY.
- IMAGINATIVE yet REALISTIC.
- PESSIMISTIC yet OPTIMISTIC.
- INTROVERTED yet EXTROVERTED.

My Loves.

- ME.MYSELF.I.
- MONEY.
- COMPUTER.
- HAND PHONE.
- CAMERA.
- CHILDREN.
- MIRRORS.
- MAKE UP.
- BITCHING.
- GOSSIPING.
- CRITICIZING.
- SLACKING.

My Hates.

- BEING BROKE.
- BEING SCOLDED.
- BEING BACKSTABBED.
- EMPTY VESSELS.
- HYPOCRITES.
- REPEAT OFFENDERS.
- COMPUTER BREAKDOWN.

My Tagboard.

My Archives.

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November 2005

December 2005

January 2006

February 2006

March 2006

April 2006

May 2006

June 2006

July 2006

August 2006

September 2006

My Links.

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-=| Steph. |=-

-=| Steven. |=-

-=| Wan Juan. |=-

-=| Weng Lum. |=-

-=| Xia Xue. |=-

-=| Yvonne. |=-

I Love You.

We never really noticed each other.
Or at least I never noticed you.
But now you are my fantasy.
My wonderful dream come true.

Your eyes met mine.
And mine met yours.
The story of Sleeping Beauty.
Riding on a horse.

Often I think of you.
And wonder if you think of me.
I just want to be there with you.
Through times of thick and thin.

Many a time I neglected you.
But you never seem to mind.
You're one in a million.
Once in a lifetime.

When you smile.
It's the greatest prize.
I'm in heaven.
I'm in paradise.

When I close my eyes.
I see your face.
The touch of your hands.
And the way you embrace.

If I'm in trouble.
All I need to do is call.
Cause I know you'll be there for me.
I know you'll catch me if I fall.

You shine like a lighthouse.
And you showed me the light.
And then I see that life.
Is not only black and white.

I believe in love.
The everlasting kind.
But true love and lust.
Are separated by a mere thin line.

I love you for who you are.
For everything you say.
And no matter what happens.
You will never be replaced.

So now you know my feelings for you.
Is not like eating jam and toast.
Our fairytale is full of love.
It's called Amor Infinitus.

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c0pyyrighttedd ; [-gabrielle-]

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Tuesday, March 21, 2006

i've been thinking alot while i laid on my bed.

from my pri sch days,to sec sch and my current situation.how i turned from being bullied to bullying others.and then back to the timid self when i entered a higher level of studies,where i once again turned out to b a bully but in a more civilised way.

though its been less den 17 yrs,i felt tt i went thru quite abit.my life is different from everyone else.i was not born to save the world,save others,but save myself.its a never ending game of ecentric mood swings where i have to hide it from my parents and i win round _(fill in a number).

but i realised tt i cannot hide anymore.its just not right.

strong as i am now,i hate the current me.mayb its better being bullied den bullying ppl.at least i dont have a sense of guilt.but if i do get bullied,i'd feel terribly useless.fuck.this world is weird.

ok,so the conclusion,i wont start a bitching session and everyting ends here.i guess i've been bitched ard since young so much so tt i learn to protect myself from being hurt.i cannot just allow ppl to step on me.but i guess i shouldnt do unto other wad i dont wan others to do unto me.

i also found out tt i become who i'm with in time.so to my super close frens,if u ever see sth u dont lyk abt me,well honey,its you.

mum once told me but i didnt quite believe her.until recently i found out tt i'm crazy with jess,slightly horny with joyce and totally nerdy with joan.whoever i'm with,my whole appearance,attitude and mindset changes.

i wont watch movies with jess but instead go round heeren disturbing cute boys.i'd only watch underworld evolution with joyce (speaking of it,they are HOT!) and yours,mine&ours with joan.different ppl,different genres.

and i forgot fendy.with him i lyk to sajiao so much,i'd even forget the whole world is looking at my childish behaviour.and duh,i'd watch romantic movies with him.snuggle up and complain "eh..y u never say tt to me de?" or "ehh...he give her rose leh.." or "eehhh....he so nasty..if u lidat i dun wan u liao...." and also "i'm better den her rite?RIGHT?!dun care.i am."

blah blah blah.wont get all emo and stuffs now.

i went to bugis with joyce and she got a free haircut la.siala.cuz tt guy was training for exams.and he needs ppl with short hair.apparently its quite ok juz tt it looks rather boyish..

he also finished his long hairs and is now doing short hairs.anyone?free leh.

i also tyco tyco got free trim leh.tt guy,well,will look cute if he wasnt pimples n all.but he's nice la.he asked if i wan a trim n i was lyk "i tot u finished ur long hairs?" and he's so nice.he said "ya la.but if u wan i could slot a time just for u."

awws.so sweet.but i also very bad.i went "harhs?i have to come back here ar?dun wan la...." so he arranged for me to go to the holland v outlet tmr nite.lalalalas.so i'm going to get my trim tmr nite with joyceeeee!!!tralalas.

i was also offered to do a.... a.... sth sth root.... or is it root sth sth ....or sth root sth.... or mayb there's just 1 sth.. aiya,u noe,after highlighting,ur hair grows n the top is black?yah.the touch up of the black part lor.hehs.

actuallie they wanted to cut my hair cuz there's this taiwanese prof who came to give them some kinda lesson.and they were short of 1 model or sth.they moment they mentioned "do u wan a hair cut?" my reaction shocked the ppl there la. "NO!!!DONT TOUCH MY HAIR!!!!!!!!" and i proceeded to grab all my hair in my hand lyk some nuthead.lols.

in anycase,i tink joyce looks the same leh...look n see..

the 1st pic was her old hairstyle,and the next is her current 1.OH WAIT!!

same concept.hahahas.

she does look the same.but if u're lookin at her in real life,u'd see a "pattern" in her hair cuttings.so yea.ok la.not bad la.after the cut we had a neoprint frenzy.hmm.just took 1 sticker and 2 cards lor..

we bumped into rosalind and her fren there!!so nice to see old classmates agn. =D oh man,i miss the old days.lalalas.I SHALL MOVE ON!

we ate at billy bomers,however u spell tt, and shared a set.1 set,2 ppl.WOW.the portions are HUGE la.while eating,i recieved a msg from APPLE.so after dinner i went to wheelock to collect my IPOD NANO.i got a new 1.YAYS.

headed home and slacked.and oh,i saw guan zheng da kor juz nw.hahahas.crapps la.I WANA SCAN MY PICS!! but apparently dad hasnt fixed my scanner and i have lyk tons of pics to scan in la. =/

what am i gona do tmr?sianz.the hairting is at 7pm and the whole day is just sleeping?NO WAY!i guess i'll probably fix up the scanner myself den.since dad doesnt seem too enthu abt dng it.lalalas.i'm super hungry.MUM SAYS I'M FAT!no i'm not.HMPF.

or am i?

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