seriously, i dont feel like doing anything. not even blogging and venting it all out. ok, i contradicted myself. i'm actually forcing myself to blog though i dont have the mood to. guess there's gona be many errors this entry.
i really need someone to bring me out and release all these stuffs inside me. but i always end up shopping and forgetting to let it out, only to do nonsense at night again. bahh, i've been bottling up so many things, i tink i'll never finish releasing everything.
having periods doesnt help.
went to watch poisedon with my parents today. so unglam, but since they say tt i dun spend time with them like last time, fine. got no mood to quarrel over this. especially after 2 days of that. shopped around great world and found this espirit top i like alot.
mum told me she'll probably buy it for me when she gets her pay. yay. waited and waited before we went in for the movie. it's freezing cold there la. the show was rather nice, but abit no logic. i tink i perfer titanic. hahas.
i am frustrated. i dun even have the mood to try n be happy. blahs, so much things on my mind now, i cant concentrate on all these little emotions. cant let them kill me. but fuck, i'm losing control on myself. grr, i'm frustrated.
bahh, i'm going to do homework.
"losing grip"
Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone
Am I just some chick you place beside you
to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided
[chorus]
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere
[repeat]