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i want to dance beside a frozen lake :: where the snowflakes gently fall from the sky :: the hair swaying in the chilly wind :: as the still moments of the winter everning :: is enlightened by me ::

My Contradictions.

- SEVENTEEN yet EIGHTEEN.
- SOPHISTICATED yet SIMPLE.
- WILD yet TAME.
- CRAZY yet NORMAL.
- BITCHY yet KIND.
- SLUTTISH yet DEMURE.
- FRANK yet SHY.
- CHILDISH yet MATURE.
- DEVILISH yet ANGELIC.
- NARCISSISTIC yet SELFLESS.
- CONFUSED yet SURE.
- FICKLE yet CONSISTENT.
- SELFISH yet GIVING.
- FIERCE yet GENTLE.
- ANNOYING yet LOVABLE.
- HEARTLESS yet SENTIMENTAL.
- SCHEMING yet NAIVE.
- LAZY yet HARDWORKING.
- RETARDED yet INTELLIGENT.
- IGNORANT yet KNOWLEDGEABLE.
- UNFEELING yet CARING.
- SLOPPY yet TIDY.
- IMAGINATIVE yet REALISTIC.
- PESSIMISTIC yet OPTIMISTIC.
- INTROVERTED yet EXTROVERTED.


My Loves.

- ME.MYSELF.I.
- MONEY.
- COMPUTER.
- HAND PHONE.
- CAMERA.
- CHILDREN.
- MIRRORS.
- MAKE UP.
- BITCHING.
- GOSSIPING.
- CRITICIZING.
- SLACKING.


My Hates.

- BEING BROKE.
- BEING SCOLDED.
- BEING BACKSTABBED.
- EMPTY VESSELS.
- HYPOCRITES.
- REPEAT OFFENDERS.
- COMPUTER BREAKDOWN.

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Sunday, May 21, 2006


sian, i feel frustrated.


seriously, i dont feel like doing anything. not even blogging and venting it all out. ok, i contradicted myself. i'm actually forcing myself to blog though i dont have the mood to. guess there's gona be many errors this entry.


i really need someone to bring me out and release all these stuffs inside me. but i always end up shopping and forgetting to let it out, only to do nonsense at night again. bahh, i've been bottling up so many things, i tink i'll never finish releasing everything.


having periods doesnt help.


went to watch poisedon with my parents today. so unglam, but since they say tt i dun spend time with them like last time, fine. got no mood to quarrel over this. especially after 2 days of that. shopped around great world and found this espirit top i like alot.


mum told me she'll probably buy it for me when she gets her pay. yay. waited and waited before we went in for the movie. it's freezing cold there la. the show was rather nice, but abit no logic. i tink i perfer titanic. hahas.


i am frustrated. i dun even have the mood to try n be happy. blahs, so much things on my mind now, i cant concentrate on all these little emotions. cant let them kill me. but fuck, i'm losing control on myself. grr, i'm frustrated.


bahh, i'm going to do homework.





"losing grip"


Are you aware of what you make me feel, baby
Right now I feel invisible to you, like I'm not real
Didn't you feel me lock my arms around you
Why'd you turn away?
Here's what I have to say
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided



[chorus]
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone
You, you need to listen
I'm starting to trip, I'm losing my grip
And I'm in this thing alone



Am I just some chick you place beside you
to take somebody's place
When you turn around can you recognize my face
You used to love me, you used to hug me
But that wasn't the case
Everything wasn't okay
I was left to cry there, waiting outside there
Burning with a lost stare
That's when I decided


[chorus]


Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud
Crying out loud
I'm crying out loud


Open your eyes
Open up wide
Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was scared
I was so alone


Why should I care
'Cuz you weren't there when I was there
I was so alone
Why should I care
If you don't care then I don't care
We're not going anywhere
[repeat]



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10:12 PM



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