i am so tired.
dont know what's up these days, but i am beat!
was supposed to go to cwp with shin guang today. but i got so lazy and wasnt feeling too good, i cancelled the appt with him. in case u dont know what's cwp, its CAUSEWAY POINT, dimwit. and if u dont know where's that, its at woodlands.
had a pleasant surprise by poh hwee this morning cuz he never msges me unless i talk to him. hmpf, men and their ego. anw, thank goodness i didnt get GOLD for my nafa cuz if i always got gold, i'll be able to go to ICT, thus, going to the navy.
which means 3 months in tekong after i get my diploma. oh man, the way he described the army and tekong, i swear i'll never serve army/navy/airforce/policeforce/wadeva there! its simply too scary to be heard.
slept at a crazy hour of 3am+++ and was woken up at 9am by his msg. tt's not the earliest he msged me. once, he msged me at 5am cuz he forgot that i'm not in tekong! haha! no, i wont go to tekong no matter how romantic/spectacular it looks.
went back to sleep soon after and woke up to tell shin guang i was not feeling good. i'm really not feeling good. been having giddy spells and vomitting sensations for the past few days. but even in that condition, i could go to orchard ytd. hahas. i am so silly.
poh hwee was lyk "u should be resting at home!" and i went "eh, if i faint in orchard, at least got ppl. but if i faint at home, i rot liao also no one to help me!" after that, we squabbled about who'll get married and who wont. a rather lame topic to be squabbling about but it was fun i guess.
and about my blogskin, i'm thinking of making it simple. which is diffcult for me because i like complicating stuffs! i'll still disable stuffs cuz i seriously think that if u dont have what it takes, u cant rip anyting off my blog.
i respect html pros and ppl who know how to get stuffs off my blog because they have what it takes. for ppl who dont know, either u ask, learn, or continue being a dumbonic idiot. i also recently disabled the edit ting at the top of the browser.
for stupid ppl, if u wana extract out codes, the easiest is to click the "edit" on ur browser. dont understand? its ok. i understand that its too high a standard for you. so now its either you know how to extract codes, or you dont. i know weizhen noes how. lalalas.
but i'm still very amazed how ppl still dont understand HTML. its so simple! easy codes like bolding, underlining and such, i'm sure ppl noe. another ting, even if u manage to extract out the codes, do u noe which one to look for? if not, u're still dumb.
go play neopets or sth. seriously, i learnt HTML from there.
was so fasinated by people who could decorate their guilds up so nicely while mine was a default template, unpopular and plain. i went round looking and tried asking, but it seems like people playing neopets are very nasty.
so i read thru tutorials myself and played around. gave up after my PSLE and during sec2, debbie helped me with my 1st bloggie! thanks again gurl. she told me "whatever you do, dont edit your template."
being the very naughty and curious me, i edited and play ard and soon i helped ppl make blogs of their own. actuallie i didnt make them, cuz i copied from blogskins.com. but anw, some grew to design their own blog while others, remained stupid.
to be honest, i was shocked at brenda's abilty to learn so fast. though we fell off some time ago but yea, i was amazed. and the stupid ones, well, we all know who they are, still ripping blogskins off blogskins.com even though i painstakingly tried to explain HTML to them.
dont get me wrong, i aint talking about you unless u admit it, stupid.
spent my day slacking and slacking at home. had a nice chat with amanda and learnt the painful lesson of "putting down your ego on people you love and care for". for me, i had to bang my head on the wall, suffer a concusion before waking up.
with that bang, i dont wana wake up also cannot ar.
had dinner with my parents and mum's off to some dancing ting in CPS. how can it be? mum, dancing, primary sch, chacha. omfg. and i wanted to join dance sports in NP. FORGET IT MAN. jess wanted to drag me to latin. but i'm super stiff, i dont even wana shake my hand, what more my ass.
thought of NRA as my CCA at first. btw, i found out what it stands for thanks to ming yew. NRA = New Revolving Age. but then, decided not to cuz, I AM SUPER STIFF NOW. shall try a CCA with no relation to dance!
mayb i'll take on IT. wahahahahas. i wonder what will happen if i went to ICT instead of LSCT. i would be so sad, i'll probably cry. but if that happens, which never will, i'll just accept it and not go thru some random backgate. =D
come to think of it, now i'm wishing that i went to ICT. cuz i just want to. i mean the security management ting. oh man, to battle between my strenght and interest sucks. so children, i prove a point. that interest might not always be your strenght and strenght doesnt always have to be your interest!
this is yet again another meaningless entry.
i found another old picture of me. silly but i used think its nice. lols.
i'm just posting old pics cuz i dont have new ones la.just too lazy to take pictures these days!
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
9:01 PM
i miss the old days.
i was reminded of my childhood buddy, Bryan, while mum was yaking abt aunty Freda the other day. the good old days of hanging out at his house, pretending to take on different roles during the times when there were no adults ard.
i dont deny tt i used to have a slight crush on him though he's a year younger than me. i remember going over to his terrace every fridays during each holiday. i would bring my cabbage doll and some stuffed animals. we would play pretend.
when we got older, we would ride the bike to the playground and just go wild. at night, the maid would cook and aunty freda would nag me to eat more food and veggies. after that, we would run upstairs to his room n play summore until my parents came.
ahh, the happy-go-lucky childhood days. i dont know when he appeared in my life, but i will never forget the good times we had.
going back to the days when i was in RMPS, i remember a class buddy of mine. i dont know how to spell her name, but i tink its kairunisa. honestly, i was rather upset tt she didnt contact me when i moved to CNPS. well, people come and go i guess.
i also remember a haughty girl by the name of yasmine. i was in pri3 while she was pri2 if i remembered correctly. i didnt like her at all cuz she used to bully and order me around. i was really a softie during the younger days.my kindergarden bestie was yi lin. i guess her name is spelt that way. its been so long, i cant even remember properly. i really connected with her cuz she's not only my classmate, she's my neighbour. playing together with the squares near the ah-neh shop was really heaven.
spending 50cents to buy the "unbreakable" bubbles, buying paperballs at 10cents each and playing hula hoops there. it was really fun playing with good buddies. so good, all the nasty moments seem like hell when i grew up.
nursary days r a blur to me. i only remember one teacher from there. i dont know her name either. but she wore big specs and had a really sweet voice. she would shake her head when i placed biscuits on the table and brought me to the toilet.
any younger, i cant really remember.
there's this point of time in my life tt's blur, yet vivid to me. aunty lillian and her son, poh jin. i remember their domestic helper, yaya, very well. she cooks fantastic maggie mee. recalling the days when mum was a mighty film producer, i picture us poking crabs' eyes with a random satay stick.
we were so naive at that point, we didnt know it would kill the crab. when i found out, i stopped eating crabs until last year. i also remember going to a party organised by chen su zhen. the old ti ko would never fail to pick me up and babble.ass.
the most vivid incident was when mum filmed some advertisment with me in it. i was so tiny back then. if i remember correctly, its an aircon ad. i grew up without a dad, as many know. that day mum asked me to call uncle frankie(no,not PCK frankie) "daddy".
i was so delighted! i finally have a daddy. other kids in school have been teasing me and i was already feeling horrible. after the shoot, i continued calling him daddy. i thought it was for real. but just as we entered the big lift, mum snapped at me "stop calling him daddy. he's not ur dad."
i was so confused. but i noe why now. it was for a shoot. damn.
there're so many images that go through my head every now and then. if i ever see them, i just wana thank them for creating a beautiful childhood for me. without them, i wont have defeated my ugly pri4 days.
after moving to CNPS, tings took a great change. no one cared for me anymore. everyting was superficial. i hated the seniors who charged at me. if i ever see them today and still reconise them, they are gona pay for everyting.
ugly pasts r inevitable in everyone's life. but i grew from it. i'm the bitch i am today because of them. i learnt to fight at pri6 and was being counselled at sec3. but why? why am i such an evil bitch? blame me for not being strong enough to take setbacks? den blame urselves(u noe who u are) for setting them.
life took an ugly turn since then. no one is true anymore. found what i thought was love at sec4. but what happened? I ruined it. i'm the evil female. had a close fren during sec3 and sec4. gave it my all. but what happened? i'm the evil friend.
i changed, but so did everyone. i want back my old childhood days. i know i cant have them anymore. its a torture i'm gona have to carry my whole life. why are people bent on making things worse?
i never liked letting go of anyone close. but ever since i let go 2 recently, i feel lighter. so light, i flew to the skies and can never come back. so who has changed? me. i'm the evil person. i flew to high above, where i found new friends.
for the past week, my life has been joyce, amanda, fiona, poh hwee, yongda. and i'm happy with these ppl. weird to say, cuz besides joyce, i'm not familar with any of them. but anw, i gained more than i let go.
which is good. =D
anw, i dont know what was all that for. rubbish i guess. went to far east shopping center with joyce to get her typoid jab. apparently its very painful cuz she was like O_o after she came out of the doc's room. went to shaw center to take a look at the ting my mum juz joined.
yays, mum said she's gona change my whole makeup ting to the nicole miller ting. i dont know wad is it really, but she's a makeup artist in newyork. lols. tt's wad mum said. but as many noe, mum's next month is equal to next year. so yah, better dont expect too much.
walked around summore, ate, walked again and sent joyce off the work. met mum at clementi central and ate dinner there. oh, joyce is very narcissistic, just like me! we took alot of pics today and well, most contained her. but i wont post all, cuz how innovative can u get on a bus?
there are many more of where all those came from. its either we dont know how to take pictures, or we're just trying to be silly.and oh, i'm gona change my blogskin again soon! mayb during may! =)) i'm done with the picture, now i'm think of the layout. i hope it turns out nice. teeheehees.i'm tired. yawns.cwp with shin guang tmr!
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:46 PM
Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I AM FURIOUS!!!
i have been lyk tt since mon afternoon.fucking fucker!
i cannot contain my anger anymore.i need to say it out!!if u happen to noe her or wadeva den PLEASE,TAKE HER IN HAND!
on sunday night,my neighbour and her daughter came down to my house.i was watching tv as the young one kept askin when i'm going to play comp.ok,she's not young.she's pri5.i was very reluctant to let her into my room cuz i noe sth will happen.
but whenever i went in to check on my hp,SHE FOLLOWED AS IF I LET HER IN! tell me,how polite is tt huh? when the show ended,i went in cuz i wanted to play com.she followed in.ok fine,i let her.i softhearted.my fault.
after she got bored of online games,i let her play maple.THANK GOODNESS SHE DONT KNOW WAD IS (alt + tab) OTHERWISE SHE MIGHT EVEN REFORMATT MY COMP ACCIDENTLY!!!!! ok,tt's not wad made me angry.
she played with my cam and took fucking scary pictures with it! i almost jumped out of my seat when i saw it.i wanted to show joyce the "lap-puter" but instead i saw this.
AND
TELL ME, WILL U JUMP?!WHEN U'VE ALREADY TOLD HER NOT TO TOUCH ANYTING?! i only left my room for 5 mins ok. ~!@#$%^&*() _+
if it was only tt,i wont be so angry.there's MORE.
i msged poh hwee to see if he reached tekong.so naturally,i would be waiting for a reply.i was very puzzled y he didnt reply me,but i took it tt he was tired or sth.i didnt think much of it.call me stupid,naive and wadeva.i dont care.
the next day i wanted to send fiona a cute sms joke.when i opened my inbox,i saw an opened msg by poh hwee.i clearly remembered tt he did not reply me the last night.i opened and read it and i was sure i didnt see tt msg.checked the time and it was 9+ at night.ard the tyme i left my room.
I WAS SO FURIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WANTED TO CALL HER MUM N TELL HER BUT I WAS SO FUCKING SOFTHEARTED TT I SALLOWED EVERYTING DOWN.and poh hwee was also trying to calm me down so yea,i didnt do anyting.
i told my mum juz now and she encouraged me to call n tell her off.but anw,i've come to a decision tt SHE WILL NEVER STEP INTO MY ROOM EVER AGN!! i just need to get over my anger la.so i need to blog.there's so many tings irritating me now.grrrr.
another ting tt's bugging me is fendy.SINCE U'RE NOT GONA FUCKING REPLY ME ANYMORE DEN FINE.DO IT MY WAY.I TOLD U NOT TO REPLY N U FUCKING LISTENED. SO LISTEN TO THIS :
I AM GONA FUCKING MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE AND FORGET ABOUT EVER FUCKING LOVING YOU AGAIN. I DONT BELIEVE I CANT FIND ANOTHER BETTER GUY OUT THERE AND I WILL NOT QUARREL WITH ANOTHER POTENTIAL BF BECAUSE OF YOU ANYMORE. YOU ARE OUT OF MY LIFE. GET IT? OUT! YOUR MUM CAN SEND ME MILLIONS OF MSGS BUT ITS OVER. I LET IT GO BUT SO DID YOU. YOU WANA LISTEN TO ME SO MUCH? GET LOST FROM MY LIFE!!!
there's still this anger inside.blahblahblah.so wad if i still lyk him huh?it can be converted and it has.enough.y should i pressure myself and give up opportunities lyk tt?fuck la,i am so navie.1st love,to hell with 1st love.
next,joyce's sister got bullied!!!!!!! OMFG.ok,so mayb its joyce's sister,but joyce is my soguii shiifuu(haven used this word in eons) and her sister is half my sister.self proclaimed but wadeva.
grrrrr.tiny schboys,STOP BULLYING INNOCENT SCHGIRLS! man,if i ever had a younger blood brother/sister,i tink anyone who bullies them is totallie dead.was on the phone helping joyce write a letter to the tcher.could see a mega huge diff from her draft n mine.
i'm more evil,needless to say. amanda,if u read this: hey,i wont ask if u're ok,cuz obviously u're not.i hope u can open out ok.u can come to me n complain.i dont mind.really.anytyme u need girl.we're frens,though not very close,but u're still my fren.i mayb crazy but sumtymes i can give pretty gd advice.dun be paiisehh or wadeva cuz i tired tt b4 n almost went kuku.just talk.i'd even let u scold me as if i'm sum1 u hate.dont bottle tings up.blogging only helps surpress for awhile.it wont solve it.aiya,at most i go crazy with u n we both go see a shrink tgr.save costs leh.ok,the shrink part is a joke.remember there's ME on msn ok.eh,i'm skinny but not tt tiny until u cannot see me ba?point is,if u wana talk,either msn or u can sms me. =) and dont be silly,drinking gives u liver problems.stop it. =/
p/s. heh,this seems abit redundant now.lols.
lalala.now i shall blog abt happier stuffs. =)
went to makan with yongda juz now at cheeseprata.oh man,how come i never noticed him during 4 yrs in the same sec sch huh?we have so much in common and many tings to talk abt.we spent abt 1 whole hour sittting at the busstop waiting for the double decker 51 bus to JE.
the stupid bus never came and we took 188 to cck,lot1.chatted more and took silly pics which he will send to me probably on sat/sun.got 1 neoprint also la.but i no scanner.lols.i was rudely reminded of fendy while foolin ard with him.they are so similar can.
its lyk their grip of tings r the same,except tt yd's palm is smaller.speaking of which,i compared with him n,his palm is no bigger den mine.anw,there's just sth similar between both of them.and no,i'm not falling for him.shut up u shallow minded idiots.
visited granny n drove ard the west area cuz dad needed to drop checks at various banks.last stop was clementi and i bought 2 pairs of slippers at $10 each.eh,i very happy leh.cheap n nice.see,u dun need branded tings to look nice.
mum once told me sth which i find very true. if u wear original/branded stuffs and take MRT or bus,ppl will still tink tt its imported from m'sia.u noe?cheap,fake goods.but hell,if u have a blingbling sports car,u can wear grass n ppl will still worship n think they're all branded.
typical huh?so since i'm gona take MRT n buses,den i dun need to be a sucker n buy branded stuffs.if u say "wad counts is how i feel", to hell with ur childish orstrich thinking.have i mentioned?an orstrich is stupid cus they bury their heads in the soil n think "i cant see u,so u cant see me."
its lyk,if u dont care wad ppl think,den y bother to even dress up? 'to feel good' u might say.den tell me,would u feel good wearing it at home all day instead?pls la.everyone noes tt when ppl buy nice,branded clothes,its to show off tt u're rich/classy/trendy.and how to show off,let other ppl see la.
and when u let other ppl see,u expect a "wah,branded leh." therefore makin u 'feel good'.i bet tt when ppl say "ee.so ugly u still wear" u would discard it under a pile of other tings.so wadeva happened to the "wad counts is how i feel" huh?
i understand tt sumtymes the ting is super nice and happen to be branded.i've encountered tt.but i dont show off.tt's the diff,stupid.
oh anw,back to my cheap buys!2 pairs.nice.i'm loving them.hehehes.
eh,i tired liao.spent alot of energy punching every letter during my angry feat.lols.gd nite.
orchard with joyce tmr!
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:59 PM
i was looking thru my old pictures ytd nite.
and then i came across a folder "darrdarhh and ii".i felt so empty..
i dont deny tt i miss him.i mean,with a r/s lyk ours,who wont?we dont hate each other,we sorta still lyk each other,and we had a big quarrel over nth.its just weird la ok?
probably the breakup strained our moods abit.ok fine,ALOT.and the quarrel was stupid.it was not over a guy,girl or being homosexual.we juz quarrelled while chatting happily.well,it started from there at least.
blahblahblah.had this sudden thought cuz i was in NP with terrible period cramps.all because of tt joyce la!hmpf.stop sticking so close to me!!!!hahahahas.jkjk.
my intention was to ask fendy np where got panadol.duno y i tot of him,i just did.but joyce made it sound lyk some tragic drama.he almost rushed down la. -.- its very nice of him but still......
anw,while lookin thru the pictures,i realised i look very tootsie in most of them.lyk some aunty or sth.cuz i was mostly dressed in tshirts n such.i dont noe if i should post them,cuz they r rather outdated and i look super ugly.
and then i read thru the lyrics of "goin' crazy" by natalie and everyting started sinking in.i had the song n lyrics posted in my other blog.redundant to say it cuz many duno the other blog.wadeva.u duno,not my problem.
ok,enough of "the good old days".went to sp with joyce to get her enrollment done.they got this student card ting.and u need it to go to the 4th lvl.so i was left alone sumwhere.but not long after,my saviour came.
yong da was alone,so i schemed to sneek into the 4th lvl with him.wahahahas.i did make it but didnt manage to find joyce.accompanied him to get his new laptop.siala,i wan it!!but daddy says tt np's terms n conditions r much better den sp.
sianz.so i'm gona get an acer instead of a fujitsu.
tt silly boy wans to challenge me in DOTA.wahahahaha.i only played it TWICE.without proper training.i cfm lose de ma.any experts wana teach me?anw,even if there are,i have no tyme these days.BUSY BUSY BUSY.
with admin stuffs,buying stuffs and just sleeping.seriously,i'm worn out by just buying and walking.it hurts my heart to give away money lor.afterall,its my parents money.not tt they're poor,but money issues r rather tight esp with sch fees n laptops.
unless i'm a richass,which unfortunately i'm not,i dun really spend tt much.mayb i did once while shopping with aunty judy.speaking of which,MAN,she's a certified shopping guru.i almost spent my one month's allowance in 1 day!!!!
anw,money i spent are my own hard earned money.ok la,i koped abit from my allowance to keep up with the momentum a lil.i wont say its fun shopping,just rather enjoyable.but wad i really enjoy is the tyme spent with old frens.
probably they're the same old sec sch frens,but if i dun grasp tt opportunity now,i may never have it anymore.cuz in poly,they'll find new pals and such.esp when i'm in a total diff faculty from all of them except joan.
unique ma!!!
i noe joan n i will last.this bond is just unbreakable.cuz she wont hurt me lyk many others.she's genuine.she wont make use of me or try to break me using underhand methods.even if we aint gd frens anymore,she wont hurt me.and i will never either.
i dont noe why she's different.she just is.i wont even start a quarrel with her intentionally.we do bicker,but its abt movies and analogies.no harm anw.
i was watching grey's anatomy.its really amusing how good frens can juz call each other horrific names! yang called grey a "slutty mistress" and grey called yang a "pregnant whore".hehs,when will i find a fren lyk tt huh?
poh hwee once said tt it would be fun to call his girlfriend "siao eh".lols.i do agree.rather loving but in a "siao" way. lalalalalas.
oh i digress,back to my day.
after sp,we went to np.by then i was already in pain n need of a pad.forced myself there cuz i needed to get tings done.ok la,its not really important but still.met chuanlinn,ros,huangzhi and weizhen there.
tired out the LABCOAT and signed up for LSCT FOC!!!yays.i feel lyk i already belong there even though i haven done the enrollment ting.will be paying my fees tmr and e enrolling tmr as well.
my leader for the explorers ting was there.and he remembered me!awws.i feel honoured.gracia was there too.she was lyk "hey,u remember me??" while waving hands frantically.i went "oh yah!!gracia rite?"
could tell tt they were rather amazed by my memory.but i remember her cuz,well,i just remember her la.dont u tink gracia kinda sounds lyk gabrielle?hahahas.actuallie i had an impression cuz she was always wearing super short shorts and skirts.
if i didnt recall wrongly,she had purple toe nails.lols.
by then i was already almost dying of pain.decided to go library to get a hotdog and hot chocolate.but didnt finish the hotdog cuz i was almost in tears.was in desperate need of panadol.my supreme saviour,my giver of life,my lord!lols.
forced my way out of the library as it was closing.asked for directions and holy moly,the girl was kind enough to give me panadol!yays!i went to atrium n ate the panadol.at last,my pain was gone.my parents came to pick me up and we ate dinner after sending joyce home. =D
anw,while waiting for joyce this morning,some lady came to me.i duno how to explain it la.she wanted money to see a doctor at the polyclinic.i only had $4.so mayb i'm stupid but she was really burning and her face was pale yet red.i gave the $4 to her
i dont know wad to say la.i brought her there but the damn polyclinic needed ic.she's kind i guess.cuz i drawed $20 infront of her while going to the polyclinic.but all she asked was if i could help.when i told her i needed to eat,she said "nvm,i will find a way.God bless u."
did my "good deed" earn me 2 panadols when i was in desperate need?
i duno.God or no God,thanks for the panadol.i didnt get the girl's name,but thankyou.if u happen to noe me n read my blog.which i highly doubt so la.lols.
so tt's roughly my day.and i had a nice sms chat with poh hwee.hahas.gogogo!!! 3 months and u can be a normal solider. =)))
i'm still having slight cramps though i just another another 2 panadols.panadols remind me of fendy and how i went crazy in the past.hurhurs.very precious memories to be kept with me.i once heard "the most painful thought aint about u leaving me,but of the memories we once had."
he didnt leave,but well,just an analogy.
after typing for so long,i have no pictures.i shall just randomly post 1 from the old hard disc.i look crappy in it.
yes the light shines on me. =) i love panadols.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:59 PM
LOL.
i forgot tt i disabled highlighting and rightclicking.erms.if u ppl seriously wana do tt lame ting ytd,email me n i'll copy n paste everyting into the email.paiiseh for the trouble.
i noe to those HTML pros,disabling everyting is redundant.but it works a hell lot for stupid ppl!! i mean,if i ever wan ppl ripping stuffs off my site,i'd make sure tt they r not stupid fools.hehehes.
anw,daddy invented a new type of comp/lappy.i call it, THE LAP-PUTER.lols.he had a laptop afew years back and the screen sorta got spoilt.he left it to collect dust until today.i duno how he did it,cuz i was sleeping,but he chopped the laptop into half,and connected it to the comp monitor.
the phone is just extra la huh.had a mega huge quarrel with parents juz now.oh man,i have voices in my head!!!!serious,no kidding.its lyk i was left to sit there and then the fucking voices kept saying "they dont want u,no one does,y dont u just die?" its taking alot to say this cuz i noe ppl who hates me will agree with it.but hell,if u wan me to die,y dont u come talk to me lyk how the damn voice in my head did?i even saw a face on my floor la.for those who came b4,my living room floor is lyk,messy with lotsa random spots.black,green,white,brown.the face was there la!!!!!! fuck,i'm crazy.after the quarrel,i told them and they dont seem to care.so yea,dont care lor.the feeling was very intense.the tears kept rolling and they never seem to stop talking.i had to dig my nails into my wrist,which is fucking stupid cuz they hurt now,but it doesnt seem to stop!! the human mind is deadly.i felt frightened,guilty,sucidal,angry and hurt.anw,today's not the 1st tyme i "heard" tt voice.but i guess i'll just have to live with it.i need a doctor.but fuck,who cares?it doesnt really matter,i will fight it myself.then during dinner,i tried to hide the red marks by putting some foundation n eyeshadow to cover it up.i tot there was no wound no shit and it shouldnt hurt,but fucking hell,PAIN LA. -.- after dinner i tried to use ice to cool down the marks but its still there now.sians.i am polluting my precious blog with my crazy depression ting.on a lighter note,i'm getting an acer laptop!but didnt make the decision there la.came home,quarrel finish liao den say wan tt laptop.HAHAHAS.lame la.i had to make a decision between dell and acer.although they were eyeing on the dell cuz of the payment n weight,i still lyk the acer one.its cheaper but heavier den the dell laptop.plus,dell has 12 mths 0% interest free while acer only had 6mths interest free.but i still lyk the acer cuz tt was the 1st one i touched when i went to the convention center.HAHAHAS.lame but i duno y,i always get attached to the 1st ting i touch.unless there's another much,much,much,much better one la.tralalalalalas.i'm a crazy girl.my eyes hurt,good night.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:59 PM
there are afew congratz i wana say!!
1stly,most importantly, Mr and Mrs Soh!!!!!!!!!!!! YOUR SON IS SUPER DUPER EXTREAMLY CUTE!!!!!!!!! oh my,i should stop going gaga over babies.but if u do get to read this,take care ok mrs soh!! your little prince is just simply so adorable. =D
next, POH HWEE!!! you're finallie out of tt horrid P.TekongJC!!!hahas.ok la.not JC,but at least u get 1 1/2 days of rest b4 going back to army.spend ur tyme wisely and to the fullest! =))) learn to love army life n it wont be so tough.treat tekong as SAJC.u said u were rather comfortable there,so be comfortable in tekong too! JIAYOUS!
amanda,treasure this moment!life i full of ups and downs.u win some,u lose some.so dun be disheartened when tings dun go ur way ok?take care. =D
i just watched the 100th episode of fear factor.there're 2 guys in the show i totallie despise.but there's a huge difference between the 2.
1st guy bragged so much about himself being the most daring and craziest guy.and tt he'll win the 100grand.guess wad?he was THE FIRST ONE OUT OF THE SHOW.and ALL the girls beat him flat la.such a LOSER!
the other guy was native to their competition ground.so he was bragging about how he would win and everyting.mum,dad n i HATED him and prayed so hard he'll lose the 1st round.but he didnt.except for the last round where he accidently dropped the flag.
the difference: one was just an empty vessel while the other had wad it takes but does it in an assholic manner.i despise both of them but if i were to choose,i'll take the asshole.
anw,i was playin maple juz now.cuz fiona asked me to try it out.its really cute to see how to kill those monster tingys.and fiona has tt panda ting.I WAS MOCKING AT HER POOR PANDA PET TING LA.
cuz she jumped up this ting.and the poor panda was trying so hard to jump up.just jumping and jumping.worse of all,she AFKed.so the panda was left there to jump,jump and jump lyk a monkey panda.LOLS.
and i was playin with the expressions.very3 cute..i only took 2 though.cuz very mafan..
tt's not my character la dumbdumb.its just some stand with a hole for u to take screenshots and make ur character look stupid.hahahahas.
recently i've been very lazy to post pictures.and with blogger's fucked up uploading problems,to hell la.but ytd i was very lucky to be the 999 person to view my blog!lalalalalas.
tralalalalaas.
anw,i'm bored and amanda has picked me to do this.yes,i read ur blog.so........
Rules: Bold the following that are true about you and add 5 people whom you want to do this at the bottom.
- I miss somebody right now.
- I don't watch much TV these days.
- I love olives.
- I own lots of books.
- I wear glasses or contact lenses.
- I love to play video games.
- I've watched porn movie.(.....)
- I have been in a threesome.
- I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
- I believe that honesty is the best policy.
- I curse sometimes.
- I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
- I'm TOTALLY smart.
- I've broken someone's bones.
- I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
- I hate the rain.
- I'm paranoid at times.
- I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
- I need money right now.
- I love sushi.
- I talk really, really fast.
- I think I have fresh breath in the morning.
- I have long hair.
- I have lost money in Las Vegas.
- I have at least one sibling.
- I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
- I have worn fake hair / fingernails / eyelashes in the past.
- I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
- I like the way that I look.
- I have lied to a good friend in the last 6 months.
- I am usually pessimistic.
- I have a lot of mood swings.
- I think prostitution should be legalized.
- I think Britney Spears is pretty.
- I have a hidden talent.
- I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
- I am currently single.
- I have pecked someone of the same sex.
- I enjoy talking on the phone.
- I LOVE TO SHOP!
- I would classify myself as ghetto.
- I'm bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
- I'm obsessed with my blog.
- I don't hate anyone.
- I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
- I have a cell phone.
- I believe in God.
- I watch MTV on a daily basis.
- I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
- I've rejected someone before.
- I like someone.
- I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
- I want to have children in the future.
- I have changed a diaper before.
- I've called the cops on a friend before.
- I have a lot to learn.
- I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
- I am shy around the opposite sex.
- I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
- I have tried alcohol or drugs before.
- I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
- I own the "South Park" movie.
- I have avoided assignments at work/school to blog.
- I enjoy some country music.
- I would die for my best friends.
- I think Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
- I watch soap operas whenever I can.
- I'm obsessive and often a perfectionist.
- I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
- I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
- Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
- I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
- I have dated a close friend's ex.
- I like surveys.
- I am happy at this moment.
- I'm obsessed with guys.
- I go for older guys/girls, not younger.
- I study for tests most of the time.
- I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
- I can work on a car.
- I love my job.
- I am comfortable with who I am right now.
- I have more than just my ears pierced.
- I walk barefoot wherever I can.
- I have jumped off a bridge.
- I love sea turtles.
- I spend ridiculous amounts of money on makeup.
- I believe in prophetic dreams.
- I plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
- I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
- I hate office jobs.
- I love sci-fi movies.
- I think water rules.
- I went to college out of state.
- I am adopted.
- I like sausage.
- I have thrown up from crying too much.
- I have been intentionally hurt by people i love
- I love kisses.
- I fall for the worst people.
- I adore bright colors.
- I can't live without black eyeliner.
- I think school is awesome.
- I think pigtails serve a purpose.
- I dont know why the hell i did this thing.
- I usually like covers better than originals.
- I don't like multi-textured ice cream.
- I love coaching youth sports.
- I can pick up things with my toes.
- I cant whistle.
- I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
- I have ridden/owned a horse.
- I still have every journal I've ever written in.
- I can't stick to a diet.
- I talk in my sleep.
- I've often thought that I was born in the wrong century.
- I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
- Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
- I have jazz in my blood.
- I wear a toe ring.
- I have a tattoo.
- I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
- I am a caffeine junkie.
- I read trashy romance novels and I am ashamed.
- I love wrestling.
- If I knew I would get away with it, I would commit at least one murder.
- I don't cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
- I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical, the better.
- I enjoy a nice glass of wine with dinner.
- I'm an aritst.
- I have a goal to collect every Johnny Depp movie ever made.
- I have an unhealthy Taco Bell obsession.
- I have a crush on a cartoon character when i was young.
- I have spent more on anime and manga than many spend on computers or other high end products.
- I only clean my room when neccesary.
- I have pointy-ended ears.
- I have underwear every colour of the rainbow.
- I LOVE korean dramas.
- I colour-code my wardrobe.
- I own more than 20 pairs of shoes.
- I cry silently and get over things easily and quickly.
- I love blasting linkin park at mum whenever she nags.
- I love listening to jay chou music.
- I love watching cartoons.
- I love lame jokes.
- I wish I was a tragic hero.
- I hate one of my best friends but s/he has no idea.
some are lyk half true.but i cant be bothered to explain them.if u noe it,u noe it.5 ppl to do this.
fatin,wanjuan,fiona,ros,chuanlinn.i duno y they're all girls la.but these r ppl whom i talked to very recently.so yea,if u have tyme,go do it.ur blog entries r too short!HAHAHAS. =))
i totallie need sleep.joyce came over juz now to look at mrs soh's family blog.den we played maple.duno y,we started this whacking game.and we were smacking each other so hard.as hard as possible.even had pillow fights.LOLS.
i'm just tired la.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:59 PM
was fooling ard here juz now..
some website for u to upload ur pic and it'll tell u which celebrity u look lyk.my results were rather crappy.the top 3 ppl i look lyk are.....
paula radcliffe: 68%
hilary duff: 63%
kim hee-sun: 61%
crapps.i dun even look abit lyk them.anws,just for laughs la.
went to bugis with jess n william.been going there rather often this week.last week was cityhall and bishan.last last week was orchard.week b4 orchard was bugis.omg.the bugis frenzy is repeating itself!
met afew ex kentridgeans.had a nice chat with steven.he was so stunned by both of us!cuz we changed so much.and he was lyk O_O.hahahas.silly jiejie.lalalalas.
i bought 3 tops and 2 pairs of earrings although i promised myself not to spend.but i couldnt resist it.and jess was giving me the "buy lehh...acc me buy lehh..." look.i guess temptation just settles on me too easily.lalalas.poor william had to take our tings.
actually,i kinda miss having a bf.esp when i'm the lighbulb for couples.hahahas.its lyk so lonely walking behind a couple and then u're walkin by urself lookin at clothes.very sad de leh!!but she's been my lightbulb for so long.my turn.
anw,was chatting with amanda.she told me to read this.very meaningful.thanks gurl.
moving on,jess bought this set of clothes which looks lyk she's in cosplay.WAHAHAHAHA.william wanted a pic of it.but i scared she kill me if its not nice.but i'm very happy with 1 top.i was rather reluctant to buy it at 1st.
but after i tried it on,i bought it.WAHAHAHAHAS.i really lyk it alot.it goes very well with the jeans skirt i was wearing.omg.i couldnt resist.so i took a pic of it. =D
tralalalalas.i really like it alot.mum says its nice too. =))
i love my earrings too.I LOVE ALL OF MY EARRINGS!!!!i'm an earringfanatic.totallie crazy over it.if i have a choice,i'll buy all the earrings there r on earth!its funny how i only have 1 pair of piercings when i have lyk 40++ pairs of earrings.
i miss bitching on my blog.though its only lyk 2 days la.ppl say its because i care abt the ppl i bitch abt.tt is so not true.in my case at least.bitching shows tt i'm gloating.caring are things lyk "i give up","i duno wad to do","i hope u get better".
many have heard of "interpret good intentions as bad ones." but u ever heard of taking "nasty comments as words of praise?" in nicer terms,its taking it with a pinch of salt.but i tink its just pure stupidity on their part.
one amusing ting.i duno if i should say it.but how cute is it,to coach someone into doing sth,doing it personally,but criticizing it at the same tyme,and still thinkin tt its cool?i duno abt others,but i find it super funny.that totallie made my day.
yes,stupidity.the ting tt attacks u when u least expected.
hahahaha.i wont rant too much abt it.lest people contradict themselves again.come to think of it,y am i being so kind?ok,i am.tralalalalas.i shall remain kind.but i feel uncomfortable. damn. bitching is complicated.
there's so much to think abt while bitching.lyk "should i mention names?" and btw,i find ppl who dont dare to are as disgusting as wannabes. and there's "wad should i mention,and wad not to?". "how should i go about it?" and yadayadayada.err.i'm drifting.lately my entries have no form.very unorganised.blahhhs.i'm just super tired.gtg sleep.going bugis for my hair ting tmr.nitesss.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:47 PM
Wednesday, March 22, 2006
5 inches of my hair was snipped away from me. =(
i wan my hair back.i feel uncomfortable now.sianz.so much for -i wan a hair trim cuz my hair is growing too long.- but oh well,its my choice anw.i guess i'll have to live with it till it grows back.oh my hair,my poor hair.....
i have big plans for my hair ok.1st yr in poly i'll keep it long,curly and coloured.and then after holidays,IMMA GONA CHOP IT OFF!!ok i noe i sound crazy.i'm still thinking abt it.should it be 2nd yr short and 3rd yr medium?or 2nd yr medium and 3rd yr short?
if i do 2nd yr short,i'm gona die of heartache.but its rather good for a drastic change aye?hmms.i need suggestions!experts?anyone?hahas.
ok.here's it.yr1: long,curly,highlighted. yr2: medium,natural,dyed. yr3: short,dyed,highlighted.COOL RITE?lalalalaalas. =D
in anycase,i'm gona change my hair during the 3yrs,no matter wad.i can look ugly,doesnt matter.its lyk beauty is in the eyes of the BEHOLDER!WAHAHAHA.i'm using a huge word.ok la.tt's a mini word.its not all tt big anw.just for suaku ppl lyk me.lalalalas.
and oh yes,i was fucked up by mum juz now cuz the hairdresser was rather ammature and took quite some tyme.but it doesnt matter tt she's adding on to the depression ting cuz,well,it just doesnt matter.
because afterall i'm dead and living for the sake of my frens,education and probably for my tiny patheic body.it doesnt matter tt i havent had dinner until i forced my weak self to cook 2 stupid eggs which didnt fill my hunger for long.
well.i guess i've been such a bad girl,they want me to starve while one catches up on sleep and the other watches tv.its doesnt matter to me.really.cuz i'm always the one making the fucking mistake.i'm always the 1 saying the fucking "sorry" while i'm the last 1 to retort.
so with situations lyk this,can i not be bitchy and talk back?when i do,i'm at fault agn.its life dear,its fucking life.
moving on,well,there's nth to move on abt.since i've been feeling rather fuckedup,i guess life aint so nice after graduation.oh anw,i tink i look cock in pri sch.
stupid.this entry has no point.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:59 PM
i've been thinking alot while i laid on my bed.
from my pri sch days,to sec sch and my current situation.how i turned from being bullied to bullying others.and then back to the timid self when i entered a higher level of studies,where i once again turned out to b a bully but in a more civilised way.
though its been less den 17 yrs,i felt tt i went thru quite abit.my life is different from everyone else.i was not born to save the world,save others,but save myself.its a never ending game of ecentric mood swings where i have to hide it from my parents and i win round _(fill in a number).
but i realised tt i cannot hide anymore.its just not right.
strong as i am now,i hate the current me.mayb its better being bullied den bullying ppl.at least i dont have a sense of guilt.but if i do get bullied,i'd feel terribly useless.fuck.this world is weird.
ok,so the conclusion,i wont start a bitching session and everyting ends here.i guess i've been bitched ard since young so much so tt i learn to protect myself from being hurt.i cannot just allow ppl to step on me.but i guess i shouldnt do unto other wad i dont wan others to do unto me.
i also found out tt i become who i'm with in time.so to my super close frens,if u ever see sth u dont lyk abt me,well honey,its you.
mum once told me but i didnt quite believe her.until recently i found out tt i'm crazy with jess,slightly horny with joyce and totally nerdy with joan.whoever i'm with,my whole appearance,attitude and mindset changes.
i wont watch movies with jess but instead go round heeren disturbing cute boys.i'd only watch underworld evolution with joyce (speaking of it,they are HOT!) and yours,mine&ours with joan.different ppl,different genres.
and i forgot fendy.with him i lyk to sajiao so much,i'd even forget the whole world is looking at my childish behaviour.and duh,i'd watch romantic movies with him.snuggle up and complain "eh..y u never say tt to me de?" or "ehh...he give her rose leh.." or "eehhh....he so nasty..if u lidat i dun wan u liao...." and also "i'm better den her rite?RIGHT?!dun care.i am."
blah blah blah.wont get all emo and stuffs now.
i went to bugis with joyce and she got a free haircut la.siala.cuz tt guy was training for exams.and he needs ppl with short hair.apparently its quite ok juz tt it looks rather boyish..
he also finished his long hairs and is now doing short hairs.anyone?free leh.
i also tyco tyco got free trim leh.tt guy,well,will look cute if he wasnt pimples n all.but he's nice la.he asked if i wan a trim n i was lyk "i tot u finished ur long hairs?" and he's so nice.he said "ya la.but if u wan i could slot a time just for u."
awws.so sweet.but i also very bad.i went "harhs?i have to come back here ar?dun wan la...." so he arranged for me to go to the holland v outlet tmr nite.lalalalas.so i'm going to get my trim tmr nite with joyceeeee!!!tralalas.
i was also offered to do a.... a.... sth sth root.... or is it root sth sth ....or sth root sth.... or mayb there's just 1 sth.. aiya,u noe,after highlighting,ur hair grows n the top is black?yah.the touch up of the black part lor.hehs.
actuallie they wanted to cut my hair cuz there's this taiwanese prof who came to give them some kinda lesson.and they were short of 1 model or sth.they moment they mentioned "do u wan a hair cut?" my reaction shocked the ppl there la. "NO!!!DONT TOUCH MY HAIR!!!!!!!!" and i proceeded to grab all my hair in my hand lyk some nuthead.lols.
in anycase,i tink joyce looks the same leh...look n see..
the 1st pic was her old hairstyle,and the next is her current 1.OH WAIT!!
same concept.hahahas.
she does look the same.but if u're lookin at her in real life,u'd see a "pattern" in her hair cuttings.so yea.ok la.not bad la.after the cut we had a neoprint frenzy.hmm.just took 1 sticker and 2 cards lor..
we bumped into rosalind and her fren there!!so nice to see old classmates agn. =D oh man,i miss the old days.lalalas.I SHALL MOVE ON!
we ate at billy bomers,however u spell tt, and shared a set.1 set,2 ppl.WOW.the portions are HUGE la.while eating,i recieved a msg from APPLE.so after dinner i went to wheelock to collect my IPOD NANO.i got a new 1.YAYS.
headed home and slacked.and oh,i saw guan zheng da kor juz nw.hahahas.crapps la.I WANA SCAN MY PICS!! but apparently dad hasnt fixed my scanner and i have lyk tons of pics to scan in la. =/
what am i gona do tmr?sianz.the hairting is at 7pm and the whole day is just sleeping?NO WAY!i guess i'll probably fix up the scanner myself den.since dad doesnt seem too enthu abt dng it.lalalas.i'm super hungry.MUM SAYS I'M FAT!no i'm not.HMPF.
or am i?
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:36 AM
i tink i'm saddistic leh.
i juz watched grey's anatomy and i kinda lyk the part where they squeezed the judi dolls'(barbie dolls) heads outa tt guy's intestines.and when the doc goes "this is the head of ___doll...OH,tt's the head of ___doll,the most popular doll..."
oh man,tt guy was totallie stupid.swallow 10 heads at once.stupid man.HAHAHAS.
anw,form E was handed in.yays!!i also went to get my singpass and stuffs.i didnt eat til abt 3-4+ la.was lyk super hungry.jess n i met jden while handing in the form.heyheyhey,HE'S IN NP AS WELL!!so many ppl fr KRSS r in NP,its almost lyk we're dominating the place.
JOYCE TAN WEI TING,WHY ARE U STUCK AT SP U MEGA HUGE GIGANTIC HUMONGOUS EMORMOUS SOTONG?and some other peeps lyk fatin,des as well.man,GO APPEAL HERE LEH.hahahas.
just as i was about to hand in the form E,the damn NAVY called my mum.dots,now den they decide to call when i handed in my form E.walao eh.how can?
the officer(?) said tt they can change the course for me without sweat but i have to go thru medical checkup and NAFA!!!omg.i cfm fail de la.so my mum rejected the offer WITHOUT TELLING ME!!!AFTER SHE DID DEN SHE TELL ME.WALAO EH!!!
but he did say tt during my poly yrs i could go train up and join them after my poly where i'll get the officer post.sth lidat la.but he also mentioned tt so far no women has been able to go on the submarine YET.lalalalas.
sianz.mayb i'll just stick to being plain jane(or rather,gabrielle) and just go eat.lols.ok..i noe tt a super random tot.cuz i'm just so hungry now!!and besides lyking to see ppl "hurt",i'm starting to hurt me too!!omg.not physically la.
but tings lyk not eating,slpin late and waking up early,going shopping with jess and either drinking random alcohol or taking panadols.gosh,i duno wad i'm doing now!blahs.this is so not the blog to talk abt these stuffs.
oh anw,back to the day.while walking to CPF board,this guy asked for donations.i jus wana say,人不可貌相,meaning tt u cant judge a book by the cover.i was seriously broke and rushing to the CPF.so i just jokingly took out my wallet and showed him the empty cover.
ok la.i admit he's rather cute ok?and very observant as well.cuz the enrollment package was in my bag and only the top part showed the brownish paper.he suddenly asked "how old are you?".i was lyk "16 loh,err,no..17" and he was lyk "POLY RITE?"
rather stunned,i gave him the 'how u noe?' look and he went "ur bag..got the enrollment package." walao.i cant believe i stood there n chatted abt poly when i was rushing.stupid me.so anw,i felt quite guilty so i went to draw money.for myself as well.
when i went to look for jess,i was just lookin if he's still there and guess wad?i saw him smoking.dots.and jess was waiting for me.so i couldnt be bother anw.lols.i tink i'm very bad.but who cares now anw?blahhs.
so recently i'm erms,u might just as well say,emotionally dead.poh hwee msged to ask if i was ok just now.i sorta lied and said i was cuz though he's no1 special to me,he's still a fren.i duno if he'll worry or not,but just in case.he's still in army and bookin out fri nite.
i doubt i'll meet up with him although i would love to see him bald.lols.its ok anw.dun tink i'll be going out on sat n sun.i dun wana return home late n miss my TV.hehehes.
i thought i bumped into a ghost juz now.but it was just mum.VERY SCARY CAN?cuz she was changing in her room n i went to the bedroom toilet.when i came out,i didnt see her and the door was close with a small gap.i turned to close the toilet door and saw an image in the mirror walk pass me.
shocked,i turn to see if mum was there.she was nowhere near the door and when i turned the other way.SHE WAS RIGHT BESIDE ME!!!!!!!!omg.she was wearing white summore!!i was so scared i practically teared la.
no wonder they say 鬼吓人不会死，人吓人会死。meaning ghost scared human wun die,but human scare human will die!!walao eh.i didnt have much mood to watch grey's anatomy after tt.until the judi doll part came along.lols.
ok,so conclusion to my current situation.i'm going crazy but haven start cutting myself up yet.hopefully i dont and sum1 locks me up in crazy house.i'm hungry and i wana eat meat.and i'm not going out with joyce tmr.
speaking of it,i hate it when ppl tell me tings last minute.but y is it such a trend now?last minutes,being late,excuses.aint anyone else besides me PISSED?cuz i certainly am pissed.and tt doesnt help me with my crazy emotions.
lalala,i need food............
believe it or not,i baked tt cake.was actuallie for the 1 yr tt fendy n i met.doesnt matter much now anw.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
1:13 AM
I AM SO HAPPY!!
dad combined my old comp(P4) and the spare comp(P3) and transformed it into the comp i'm using now.yays.P4 with 2 hard discs.1 main 1 slave and now i'm happily installing so many tings back agn.wahahahahahahas.
i'm so filled with emotions now.
I WANA MAKE PEACE WITH PPL WHOM I'VE "DECLARED WAR" WITH!!
actuallie i'm just puzzled y i fought with those ppl in the 1st place.i duno how many la.cuz life is so perfect now,i wan it even more perfect!!i cant even remember who i've stopped talking to.be it from cnps,cps,krss,dance...man.life's been a bitch in sch.
except for the recent 2 which i wont ever never befriend because of certain reasons.yea.the most bitched abt ppl this yr in my blog are simply justin and charissa.though i didnt say much cuz i doubt there's any value to them anw.
oh,did i hurt your feelings?
ah,i dont care anyway.1's a jerk and the other is well,dumb enough not to treasure tings and scoots off when a better prospect comes along.how did i ever start to trust them?
seriously.i've been looking thru the tings i've saved in my old comp last yr n realised tt i was actuallie very dumb.not acadamically though.there were so many ppl warning me abt danger.but i mearly brushed them aside.thank goodness the demon tails came out sooner den expected.
in any case,i'm just glad i'm going to LSCT.sth i've always wanted since sec3.though i only decided on CBE last yr,but at least i got my 1st choice and can enter NP thru its "front door" and not take some "backdoor" route.it'll kill me to take a backdoor or pull strings.which is y i rejected liu lao shi's offer to cresent girls 4 yrs ago.
to take up sth which i noe i cannot carry out is not my style.its more lyk a disgrace.i mean if i wana go to a JC/poly/ITE,i go in thru RESULTS.using CCA as a backdoor is totallie uncalled for.unless u lack of standard tt is.but ITE's standard is very low.if u also cant go ITE den i duno wad to say anymore.
take for eg cresent girls and dance(cuz i was from dance facing this offer).if i really wanted to go to cresents,which i noe i cant cuz of my results,i wont take up the offer.comon la,if i'm really a fantastic dancer i'll just join dance sch and dance my life away.
but in the case of neither good at this nor tt,i tink backdoors are so suited for these ppl. =D
i'm glad i'm so,so,so,so,so different from these backdoor(or rather,appeal) ppl.cuz they are so unglam and unstylish.so,LOW CLASS.actuallie i dont understand how backdoor ppl can be so proud of their "belonging".u noe,gleaming and boasting abt it when they're just from appeal/backdoor.
so yes,i'm proud of how i got in.thru the proper,main door entrance.and guess wad,i just realised tt LSCT is on the TOP of the sch.near the alumni clubhouse.got alcohol leh.hahahahas.top for a reason i suppose.EXERCISE.(crapps) but anw,hanging out there would probably be good.
i heard SIM's food are nice.in anycase,i guess i'll seldom go downhill unless its important.oh man,i am so nasty.and oh!!FOC!!lalalalas.FOC.sounds lyk free-of-charge.but waddahell,gotta pay $15.sianz.
wad FOC really stands for is freshman-orentation-camp.i am so going for tt la.joan mama's going too!!i hope jess comes in.den the 3 of us can hang out for the 1st few days.u noe,makan and all.but mingyew still has to be my makan guru.i dun care. =/
eh,eh,eh,imagine this.2 ex who were rather bitter against each other end up in the same sch,same faculty,same course.oh man,no wonder they were so compeitable in the 1st place.in anycase,just imagining.if its true den i duno wad to say.
and tan nu's birthday is on the 25th!!omg.tt's very fast la.i was so shocked when i heard it.wahs.i tink mum's gona buy her a pair of earrings.lalalas.earrings agn.hahahas.
tt stupid fendy got into yet another accident.i give up.i so totallie give up.i dont know what to do anymore.its lyk everytyme i dont let him do things his way,he thinks of some funny way to make it come true.asshole.after he recovers,i will never have him back.
afew nights ago when he left,i was contemplating if i sld accept him back.but after the last quarrel,NEVER.how can i trust my life to him when he cant even take care of himself and resort to childish methods to intimidate ppl?i guess i sound heartless because he did get into the ccident because of me.
but what good will it do every1?i just dont understand.the last tyme also lidat.just because i choose to ignore him,he go bang his head on some fucking wall n almost went blind.and now,he got into another accident and landed up in hospital.
i am so not going to have him back.
after drinkin and thinking abt it,i decided tt i cannot have such a man into my life.he's nice,but too stubborn for his own good.i really liked him alot.but i guess every single dream is shattered by such foolishness.
blahs.and i'm gona finally go bugis village with jess.she has been bugging me to go there since last month.honestly,i find nth amusing abt bugis.its lyk so sian.everywhere u turn,they sell the same tings but diff names.clothes,shoes,makup,etc.
she's only going there cuz she wana buy clothes.DOTS.but true la.clothes there r relatively nice.reasonable prices too.but i still cant imagine anyone going gaga over tt place cuz its really not tt nice.singapore is so small,i could comb the whole bugis villiage in a day.and then i'm sian of it.ok la.i noe who will go gaga over tt place.SUA KU LOR.(mountain tortise)
recently i've been going marina square,places ard cityhall and bishan.for a change,the enviorment there is rather nice.esp bishan.HERMIT CRABS.i wan. =( marina square is nice cuz not very crowded and can walk abt freely.the tings there r rather cheap too.the shop "rastafari" is super nice.but not my style cuz its very beach wear.
ok la.i lyk it alot cuz i found my earring rack there.HAHAHAS.
i still haven post pics.erms.i dun have.OH,OH,OH,i show u how cute i was in my younger days.i used to scan afew pics of my babypics cuz tt tyme i was with fendy mah.den i got his baby pic,so must scan mine also.lols.i used to do this pic of our baby pics.super cute.but i tink i deleted it.cant find it anywhere. =/
paiiseh abt the top.mum crumpled it.=/i tink i look sad leh.lols.blah blah blah.going out with jess to hand in form E.tatahs. =D
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i owe myself many entries.hahahas.
i also owe this blog a clearer pic of my earring rack.2 clear pics.1 with my com n everyting as a background,thus making it look messy,next with a white background.
to date the earring rack is 'home' to exactly 40 pairs of earrings excluding those i lost 1 side and ear sticks.lols.an increase from the previous 36(?) pairs. =X i tink i can open a shop leh.
anw,i was tagging fatin's blog to see if she had recieved her poly package.trying to be kpo mah.cuz hor,i tink np de package very3 nice lehh.i was very bored so i snapped shots of it.
i duno y,mayb childish,but i tink those envolopes with the string ting is super nice la.i mean,it looks confidential,classy and u can reuse it!!very nice leh.anw,tt's the enrolment package i got.
tt's from the STUDENT'S UNION.eh,eh,eh.i very proud of wads written on the address tt place lehh.walao eh.i'm gona keep it as memorial la.right on top its written - LSCT/CBE/________K - the blank space is my student ID(if u noe wad the whole ting means.) hehehehes.so happy with it.lalalalas.anw,its abt camps,sale of labcoats n such.
tt's for the sale of notebooks and some brochures.i'm thinkin of the INTEL notebook.shall go to the exibition n check it out some tyme in the near future.i also wana keep this envolope.same reason as y i'm keepin the student union 1.hahahas. =D
tt's it for the np's package.i find it so much more organised den sp.cuz i was looking thru joyce's package and they actuallie chunk everyting into 1 envolope.as in notebook brochures,enrolment instructions and stuffs.i'll die if tt happened to me.and np even separates the forms from the instructions.tt's y u see 2 pockets in the enrolment package ting.teeheehees.
i'm proud to go to NP. *gleams-
moving on,i went to watch a movie with joan today!!haven gone out with her in a long long long long long long long................tyme.hehehehehes.
we went to bishan J8 to watch the movie.also duno y we went so far.lols.i tink we said sth abt change of location cuz jp n town very sianz.hahahas.anw,we wanted to catch nanny mcphee,but apparently the seats werent too good.
so we watched - YOURS, MINE & OURS. -
it's rather amusing and has some "moral" behind it,wad many shows lack these days.i mean,how often do u watch a show with a moral(the type u learn in CME) nowadays?i not stupid2 doesnt have a moral,but instead brings out an ugly fact in humans.this show teaches about working tgr and u can get tings done.also has the "united we stand,divided we fall" theory.
overall its a good show but not a fantastic one.esp when it's screened in the same season as i not stupid2.mayb because ins2 is such a hit,this show's not stretched to its full potential due to comparison.but blahhs.i'm not a critic.dun listen to me.lols.
i noe many ppl have seen this.but i couldnt resist taking a picture of it.its so cute la.click to enlarge.lols.
and then,joan and i almost bought hermit crabs!!they are so cute la.but both our mums said no.cuz we wanted to buy a set,consisting 1 tank,1 water dish,1 shell for food,1 coconut hut(for playing),the sand base and 2 hermit crabs.
den joan has it for 1 month,and i have it for another.and the cycle goes on.cuz we figured tt we'll be seeing each other rather often in LSCT.but oh well,my parents strongly object to me having a pet.sianzzz.....
but anw,joan bought the hermit crab shells.the guy was lyk "buy shell no crab??" and proceeded to give us the 'are u crazy?' look.but they painted the shells and its very nice.so she decided to buy the shell cuz of the design.hahahahas.
the paw print 1 super cute rite?hahahahas.
lols,i tink my girlish hormones r raging.i'm going crazy over cute stuffs and cute animals and stuffed toys.as well as costume jellewry.hahahas.i'm also into shopping and walking.omg.but its fun la.esp when a guy pays for ur stuffs.whoos.
back to my day.i couldnt resist the cute design.so i also bought sth....
lyk super cute rite?rather diff from my previous cover.the previous one was innocently disgusting.but this is pure cute.awwws.lols.
joan is very happy with her shells.so she decided to give me CHOCOLATE!!hahahas.she is so cute.lalalalas.
JOAN; when will u ever stop being so narcissistic?
ME; NEVER EVER FOREVER!
she keeps giving me funny faces,and when asked to smile properly,gives me funnier faces.lols.waaaa.cannot take it.lols.
i tink there's some fire near jtss.duno.i was super bo liao while walking to jess's place to get sth from her.speaking of it,i am super cross/mad/angry with FENDY!!blahhs.i will not spoil my good mood.he got a major scolding from me ytd.but tt wasnt it,i tracked him all the way to batam just to scold him more.lols.i didnt literally go to batam,but i called him.tt's how angry i was la.i forgot to mention!i went out with joyce to get my ipod fixed at borders ytd.apparently they wanted to do a 1 to 1 exchange on the spot and i refused.no,i'm not stupid,i just needed to backup my songs.i didnt do it earlier cuz i wasnt aware tt its in a hidden folder. =/the guy told me some chim chim process to backup my songs and i didnt understand a word he said.cuz its so complicating!!but later he told me it's in a hidden folder,i was lyk "y didnt u say earlier?i NOE wads a hidden folder!" man,he tinks i'm a comp moron. -_-"after tt,we went to have a snack at starbucks.while we were eating,chuan linn called me on my mobile and said they(lion,hz,wz) were in town.so we went over to meet them.but while shopping at FEP,we got separated as they walked a tad too fast and joyce & i were a tad too slow.hahahas.but after tt,joyce went to PS with hz and i took a bus with lion and wz home.obviously we met up agn.i also bought a top!!i tink its nice but rather,erms..it looks lyk maternity clothes.blahhs.its gd in the sense tt i can eat as much as i want but it doesnt show tt i bloat.hahahas.so tt's wad happen over the past couple of days.i actually have more pictures,but they're rather redundant and super lame,so i wont post them anw.lols.i'm going to watch underworld evolution tmr with joyce!!shut up,i noe its M18 but i watchin DVD can?! =P anw,if u get to read this in tyme,and is interested in watchin underworld evolution,and is my good fren,and have my number,and noe where i live..give me a ring,joyce is coming over at 12 and we're starting the DVD at 12 sharp. =)
see,i am so nice.lalalalas.but please dont msg/call me at unearthly hours,aka 2am-9am.cuz i'll be sleeping and i dont lyk to be interupted in my sleep. good day ppl. =D
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