Wednesday, March 29, 2006
I AM FURIOUS!!!
i have been lyk tt since mon afternoon.fucking fucker!
i cannot contain my anger anymore.i need to say it out!!if u happen to noe her or wadeva den PLEASE,TAKE HER IN HAND!
on sunday night,my neighbour and her daughter came down to my house.i was watching tv as the young one kept askin when i'm going to play comp.ok,she's not young.she's pri5.i was very reluctant to let her into my room cuz i noe sth will happen.
but whenever i went in to check on my hp,SHE FOLLOWED AS IF I LET HER IN! tell me,how polite is tt huh? when the show ended,i went in cuz i wanted to play com.she followed in.ok fine,i let her.i softhearted.my fault.
after she got bored of online games,i let her play maple.THANK GOODNESS SHE DONT KNOW WAD IS (alt + tab) OTHERWISE SHE MIGHT EVEN REFORMATT MY COMP ACCIDENTLY!!!!! ok,tt's not wad made me angry.
she played with my cam and took fucking scary pictures with it! i almost jumped out of my seat when i saw it.i wanted to show joyce the "lap-puter" but instead i saw this.
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TELL ME, WILL U JUMP?!WHEN U'VE ALREADY TOLD HER NOT TO TOUCH ANYTING?! i only left my room for 5 mins ok. ~!@#$%^&*() _+
if it was only tt,i wont be so angry.there's MORE.
i msged poh hwee to see if he reached tekong.so naturally,i would be waiting for a reply.i was very puzzled y he didnt reply me,but i took it tt he was tired or sth.i didnt think much of it.call me stupid,naive and wadeva.i dont care.
the next day i wanted to send fiona a cute sms joke.when i opened my inbox,i saw an opened msg by poh hwee.i clearly remembered tt he did not reply me the last night.i opened and read it and i was sure i didnt see tt msg.checked the time and it was 9+ at night.ard the tyme i left my room.
I WAS SO FURIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WANTED TO CALL HER MUM N TELL HER BUT I WAS SO FUCKING SOFTHEARTED TT I SALLOWED EVERYTING DOWN.and poh hwee was also trying to calm me down so yea,i didnt do anyting.
i told my mum juz now and she encouraged me to call n tell her off.but anw,i've come to a decision tt SHE WILL NEVER STEP INTO MY ROOM EVER AGN!! i just need to get over my anger la.so i need to blog.there's so many tings irritating me now.grrrr.
another ting tt's bugging me is fendy.SINCE U'RE NOT GONA FUCKING REPLY ME ANYMORE DEN FINE.DO IT MY WAY.I TOLD U NOT TO REPLY N U FUCKING LISTENED. SO LISTEN TO THIS :
I AM GONA FUCKING MOVE ON WITH MY LIFE AND FORGET ABOUT EVER FUCKING LOVING YOU AGAIN. I DONT BELIEVE I CANT FIND ANOTHER BETTER GUY OUT THERE AND I WILL NOT QUARREL WITH ANOTHER POTENTIAL BF BECAUSE OF YOU ANYMORE. YOU ARE OUT OF MY LIFE. GET IT? OUT! YOUR MUM CAN SEND ME MILLIONS OF MSGS BUT ITS OVER. I LET IT GO BUT SO DID YOU. YOU WANA LISTEN TO ME SO MUCH? GET LOST FROM MY LIFE!!!
there's still this anger inside.blahblahblah.so wad if i still lyk him huh?it can be converted and it has.enough.y should i pressure myself and give up opportunities lyk tt?fuck la,i am so navie.1st love,to hell with 1st love.
next,joyce's sister got bullied!!!!!!! OMFG.ok,so mayb its joyce's sister,but joyce is my soguii shiifuu(haven used this word in eons) and her sister is half my sister.self proclaimed but wadeva.
grrrrr.tiny schboys,STOP BULLYING INNOCENT SCHGIRLS! man,if i ever had a younger blood brother/sister,i tink anyone who bullies them is totallie dead.was on the phone helping joyce write a letter to the tcher.could see a mega huge diff from her draft n mine.
i'm more evil,needless to say. amanda,if u read this: hey,i wont ask if u're ok,cuz obviously u're not.i hope u can open out ok.u can come to me n complain.i dont mind.really.anytyme u need girl.we're frens,though not very close,but u're still my fren.i mayb crazy but sumtymes i can give pretty gd advice.dun be paiisehh or wadeva cuz i tired tt b4 n almost went kuku.just talk.i'd even let u scold me as if i'm sum1 u hate.dont bottle tings up.blogging only helps surpress for awhile.it wont solve it.aiya,at most i go crazy with u n we both go see a shrink tgr.save costs leh.ok,the shrink part is a joke.remember there's ME on msn ok.eh,i'm skinny but not tt tiny until u cannot see me ba?point is,if u wana talk,either msn or u can sms me. =) and dont be silly,drinking gives u liver problems.stop it. =/
p/s. heh,this seems abit redundant now.lols.
lalala.now i shall blog abt happier stuffs. =)
went to makan with yongda juz now at cheeseprata.oh man,how come i never noticed him during 4 yrs in the same sec sch huh?we have so much in common and many tings to talk abt.we spent abt 1 whole hour sittting at the busstop waiting for the double decker 51 bus to JE.
the stupid bus never came and we took 188 to cck,lot1.chatted more and took silly pics which he will send to me probably on sat/sun.got 1 neoprint also la.but i no scanner.lols.i was rudely reminded of fendy while foolin ard with him.they are so similar can.
its lyk their grip of tings r the same,except tt yd's palm is smaller.speaking of which,i compared with him n,his palm is no bigger den mine.anw,there's just sth similar between both of them.and no,i'm not falling for him.shut up u shallow minded idiots.
visited granny n drove ard the west area cuz dad needed to drop checks at various banks.last stop was clementi and i bought 2 pairs of slippers at $10 each.eh,i very happy leh.cheap n nice.see,u dun need branded tings to look nice.
mum once told me sth which i find very true. if u wear original/branded stuffs and take MRT or bus,ppl will still tink tt its imported from m'sia.u noe?cheap,fake goods.but hell,if u have a blingbling sports car,u can wear grass n ppl will still worship n think they're all branded.
typical huh?so since i'm gona take MRT n buses,den i dun need to be a sucker n buy branded stuffs.if u say "wad counts is how i feel", to hell with ur childish orstrich thinking.have i mentioned?an orstrich is stupid cus they bury their heads in the soil n think "i cant see u,so u cant see me."
its lyk,if u dont care wad ppl think,den y bother to even dress up? 'to feel good' u might say.den tell me,would u feel good wearing it at home all day instead?pls la.everyone noes tt when ppl buy nice,branded clothes,its to show off tt u're rich/classy/trendy.and how to show off,let other ppl see la.
and when u let other ppl see,u expect a "wah,branded leh." therefore makin u 'feel good'.i bet tt when ppl say "ee.so ugly u still wear" u would discard it under a pile of other tings.so wadeva happened to the "wad counts is how i feel" huh?
i understand tt sumtymes the ting is super nice and happen to be branded.i've encountered tt.but i dont show off.tt's the diff,stupid.
oh anw,back to my cheap buys!2 pairs.nice.i'm loving them.hehehes.
eh,i tired liao.spent alot of energy punching every letter during my angry feat.lols.gd nite.
orchard with joyce tmr!
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