Friday, December 30, 2005
ohhh!!!!ahhdearr n i realised.tt anon(the retard from her blog) is actuallie her ex(heyy.i wonder how many she has already?O_o?) in disguise.eew.he totallie has bad taste.anon looks lyk[and sounds lyk,as a matter of fact] anus.i guess he lyks his ass to much.ohh well.anw,was browsing thru some guy's blog.dude,lyk i said,i hate men.tt includes u.so saying words lyk KNNBCCB wont make me lessen my hate.it grows.cuz every word u say makes my hate grow.every word u dont say makes my hate grow too.and i pity u.dont even noe how to differentiate between he and she.aww.retard.besides,whinning is a woman's forte.so wad's ur problem?anw,tt guy was WHINNING about his ex not returning his key.i mean,how disgusting.y cant u let goand accept or not,u are petty.call or no call,u are petty already.cuz u're saying it out loud.its hypocritical.its akin to blogging out "i stole candy from the shop..shh..its a secret..."*i chose candy cuz its easier for retards to understand. =)and so much for "last tyme ahhdearr n i are gona appear on ur blog."LOSER.bo bians.too tempting to resist.but effort made la.at least u didnt mention names.heyy.i didnt too!!guess i'm too kind. =Dand i heard tt he goes to orchard with those low-class normal wear-at home tees.ohh eew.totallie unglam.bigtyme.at least we dress up a lil.unlike some begger-to-be loser.*puiis*speaking of attire,its caps.i hate caps.cuz it hides my face.it hides everyone's face.i guess ppl hu wears caps have something to hide.mayb they ugly?mayb they pick nose until the hole verii big?or maybe they have a chicken pox scar on their nose?hmm.the questions go on.but one ting's for sure,caps are totallie under 14 yr olds.wonder y some older,mature,up-to-brand ppl still wear them?childish?mayb they still lyk roxy and quiksilver but refused to admit it so they can call sum1 else childish.the fellow had the nerve to call me kiddo.but its ok.cuz maturity can be gained but not childhood.so i'm enjoying it while i still can. =D
and hor and hor,i noe tt slippers are lyk s'pore shoes,but get a nice pair will ya?i tink ur's is lyk 5yrs already?ugly,old-fashion,sloopy.eew.and look at the way u walk.its lyk a duckie.i noe u had a dancer ex-gf,but u dont need to stay in 1st position(the way u put ur legs in dance) and walk in 1st position do u?ugh.disgrace to ur own country.to end off,lets add a last note. dont assume i'm writing about u.yes,u,the 1 reading this.cuz if u do,u're taking on the role of a retard.yea.so if u wana blog back,sure ting.but pls pay extra attention to sign off as 'retard'.and dun 4get to make it colourful lyk this ok? =))y are u reading this anw?
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
1:13 AM
Thursday, December 29, 2005
i kinda scared myself thinking tt the past few days were gona be boring.but its not.cuz i have my retard fren to come play with me.awws.how sweet.anw,charis ahhdearr has her own retard fren as well.but he's so mature,we call him daddy.yep.cuz he says roxy and ripcurl related brands r childish.he also said tt a $100++ wallet is cheap,and suggested tt ahhdear get Tod's.which is anytyme lyk $300++.he came today.but sadly,ahhdearr wont be ard.so she entrusted her guest to me.hahahahas.looks lyk we'll have fun.saddening i cant invite him over to my blog.awws.nvm.i'll go over den.unless daddy is to afraid to play with lil young me.so anw,my poxxies are better.whees.dad's goin away on 2nd.sianns.and i'm gona play pool with steven,ckk,quek(?),kok(?) some tyme next yr.been a long tyme since the grp hung out tgr.yay!!!i duno wad else to say.sianns.oh wells.shall stop den.tatahhs.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
5:13 PM
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
it takes up different ppl to make the world.and tt includes retards.
but dont worry.my mummie says tt we must love and care for the mentally disabled.so,I LOVE YOU SWEET ONE!!!i mean someone. =))
sugar,y dont u move over to the block next to mine.there's a retard center there.i'm sure u'll have fun.there are many like your kind.u'll fit in verii quickly.no worries dearie. =D
since i'm no retard,i can safely tell u tt i will not move in with u.u see,its smelly there.and with u ard,sweet smells and smelly smells dont mix.therefore it will smell nasty.so i'm afraid i wont move in with u.i'm sorry honey. =(
and boy,arent u smart considering your mental disablities?wow.u can call names.i'm sure the 'teachers' at the center will love your disabled intelligence.baby,i'm so proud of you.*kisskiss.
and its shocking tt u noe how to swear words lyk bitch and slut.let me teach u something new.its FUCK.heard of it?awws,pumpkin just learnt a new word.i'm loving u more n more. ;)
hehehes.lets play a game shall we?i welcome u to tag on my blog.[with a sweetheart lyk u,who wouldnt?] u can tag all the nasty stuffs u lyk and the lets see if the power of love can conquer it all.shall we?shall we?shall we?
hmm.i forgot.u cant make decisions since ur brain cant function properly.its ok.nth to be ashamed abt darling.i shall make the decision for u then.YES.we shall play the game. XD
and if u noticed,i made the post extra colourful.mummie says tt babies and retards lyk colours.i am so nice to u.aint i sweetie pie?
i also haven forgotten abt ur 'needs'.u can call me crazy.but i noe its because no one has gave u so much love in 1 entry.common,gimme a hug.*squeezes u tight.
opps.i hope i didnt pass my chickpox to u.but since u're a retard,i reckon tt u wont even notice if u had chicken pox (again).i mean,all retards have the same look rite?with or without chicken pox.hehs.if i reali did pass it to u,i tink u're on ur own dude.i'm not gonna be ur nurse.and neither r the 'teachers' at the retard center gone look after u.i suggest u end ur life if it happens.
no,i am not curel.cuz retards lyk u serve no purpose in this world.except for tagging at ppl's blog.and i nearly 4got.ur mama didnt name u well.and since u lyk the name clappy,den tt's wad u're gona be called.aww.clappy.u named urself.i am so loving you!!!!!!!!!i juz wana pinch ur face and shake it so hard ur cheekbones fall off and ur teeth runs away due to the extra strong vibrations. =Ookok.i'll stop being all mushy and everyting.so i'll be waiting for ur taggie.tatahhs clappy dear. =)))))
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
2:56 PM
Saturday, December 24, 2005
I GOT THE BEST CHRISTMAS GIFT IN MY ENTIRE LIFE!!!!I'M SURE TT IT WILL BE THE BEST!!!!CUZ THERE AINT NTH LYK TT!!!!!I GOT....I GOT..............I GOT..................chicken pox.ENVY ME HIGHER MAMMALS!!!!LOVE ME!!!!and its exactly 1 month after the dengue incident.so cool rite? =))- i hate being sick. -
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
10:03 PM
i'm sick agn.nice.on christmas eve.great.wonderful.ENVY ME.blahhs.went to the doc n he was lyk "wow.u're back.1month aniversary from the tyme u got dengue." -_-anw,dad's flying next yr on the 2nd.which means my hair will be done next yr as well.sianns.nvm.it's ok..i can work more.hehs.and its so cool.i earned abt $200 in abt 4-5 days.awesome.hahahahas. =Pi am so tired.gotta go work ltr.steven is scaring me.he say tt mayb my hard drive spoil/corrupted.OMFG.i cant afford for tt to happen.i will juz simply jump down and die.and my memory is totally failing me more n more.i cant remember wad happened ytd.i duno even remember wad tyme i woke up.sianns.oh well.tyme for work. tatahhs.btw,merry xmas.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
12:19 PM
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
i noe i died-ed in bloggin these days.busy working.hahahas.i learnt tt money making is tough.lol.took me donkey years to noe.hahahs.anw,i guess i'll be away for some tyme.uncle richard intends to let me run the "store" alone. -_-" i dun wana.i hate being alone. =(blahhs.i feel...i duno...weird.i'm reading books.i'm putting on make up.i'm getting stingy.i make friends with total strangers.i'm...alone...y do i always get this depressing emotion when i blog?blogging is bad for health.and i'm kinda loving my job.although there's no fixed pay,no fixed lunch hour,stand til leg pain,tok til no voice,get shunned by lotsa ppl,location verii far,i lyk it.i'm weird.i wish i can stay this way.anw,i'm saved $100 in 2 days.hehehes.looks lyk i can get my hair done,nails done,clothes by christmas or new yr. =))i'm bored.tatahhs.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
10:21 PM
Thursday, December 15, 2005
all men are jerks.
i knew i wasnt wrg from the start.i was so sure,i treated all men,boiis,males lyk SHIT.pure shit.i didnt care how i offended them.i dont even bother to look back n see how i've hurt some of them.it doesnt matter to me.cuz all men r jerks.worthless junk tt will b discarded after reproduction.
but after i met him,tings changed.i hated him.i was sure.he was as irritating as anything in the world.msging me everyday,asking to meet me after sch,after dance.some would say perseverence paid off.i guess so.
life was kinda sweet after tt.although he's not exactly rich,we managed to go to places tt werent expensive.more n more ppl knew abt us.some saying we look alike,asking if he was my brother.we had quarrels,fights,tears.going thru the fear of my parents finding out tgr.
soon after,i told my mum.not only did she not scold me,she approved of it.she even met him.we were delighted.we went for dinner when my dad was overseas.she allowed me to meet his parents.we thought this would last.
then my dad knew.days passed and he came over to my place during the renovations.he even helped to do up some of the extra tings lyk marking out the hole to drill,cleaning the dust off furniture.it was lyk a dream come true.
dinner tgr became a normal ting soon.he would come over and sit ard while my mum cook.he became more of a brother.he came over more n more often and stayed for long hours.we went to work together.did almost everyting tgr.
we got closer n closer.my parents found it too close.we had a talk ytd nite.i'm thankful for it though.although we're still tgr,i've learnt tt mayb i shouldnt give it my all.because ytd nite was a valuable nite.it showed many colours.
i will continue to hate men.even though i stopped for a period of tyme.the hate has come back.he's acting lyk my biological father.i hate him.i hate men lyk him.if a man loves u,he will be all out to protect.even to the point of shame,death.
but no.i took the blame.i'm sure i gave my all.did he?i dont know.i went thru hunger,pain,torture ytd.i did it to myself.no one bothered.no one is worth my love.no one.
i am sad.but not heartbroken.i expected sth lyk this.but never to the point of having a guy with the exact same character as my biological father.i will not allow myself to be tortured again.never.
i didnt recieve any msges today.not even a 'good morning'.y are all women so stupid?always pinning for tings tt wont come true.i dont understand.but i cant control myself.i am stupid.but i wont be anymore.i will be firm.nth will shake me now.not even him.not anymore.he used to change me.i will never pour a cup of water for anyone.but he made me change.
i guess i was too stupid to give in to everyting.i was too stupid to even try n protect him.i offended my mother for letting him walk home late at nite.i pushed the blame to myself.wad did he do?say tt its fair.
its not a misunderstanding.i heard it with my own ears.
i'm thankful i never promised anyting.several tymes he asked me never to leave him.i never replied.to put it in a nicer way,i'm not bounded by anyting.i'm stupid,but i'm still alert.
to make me love him agn is impossible.unless a huge change is seen.which i doubt will happen.i seriously doubt it.dont promise me.its all empty.if u read this,think for urself.do u realli love me?if u dont,please set us free.i'm tired.verii tired.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
3:25 AM
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
sianns.my damn video card got overheated n melted in the process..i'm so -DEPRESSED-dammit.i was dng my new skin when it juz turned BLACK.and now i'm blogging outside in the living room.walaos.i wana kope the video card from this com n put it in my com.sadded.so anw,i guess i'm really slacking.so much so tt i dun even bother to blog constantly anymore.hahahahas.opps.so i guess the new skin will be out only in the new yr.tt's good rite?new yr,new skin.yays.teeheehees.hmm.went to ngee ann poly on the 5th,6th,7th.BORING la i tell u.cannot take it.slack,slack,slack.and i duno wads wrg with the ppl there.the tings taught r lyk -simple- and they say they dun understand. -_-"ok la.ppl there r generally cool.cool as in they r still slacking despite being 17 yr olds.hahahas. =Xand there's sth i must say.DAMN U PPL FROM DARRDARRHH'S CHURCH.U SERIOUSLY SUCKS.SO MUCH FOR BEING FOLLOWERS OF GOD.I TINK I CAN DO A BETTER JOB.GO BACK N REPENT?MY ASS.MY FUCKING ASS.HE CAN WALK OK.HE DONT NEED SOME NOBODY FROM THE CHURCH TO PULL N LEAVE RED MARKS ON HIS ARMS.I TINK A PUNCH IS NOT ENOUGH.DONT PUSH HIM JUST BECAUSE HE'S NOT S'POREAN.U TINK HE HAS NO FEELINGS?I HATE U PPL.GEDDIT?I HATE YOU.ok.i guess i've kinda cooled dwn over the week.so i wont say more.sianns.better stop b4 dad wakes up n looks at wad i'm typing.tatahhs.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:04 PM
Saturday, December 03, 2005
wakakakakas...saw the 4 monkeys today.damn happy ok i tell u.osborn can walk now.so fast sia.i still remember seeing him in the sarong,not being able to even say mama.today,he can call me AHHYII.wahs.SHIOK.jiamin,jiahui,jiayong are still as hyper as ever.btw,am i scary?they looked at me,giggled,ran. -_-" i scary or smelly? =(but they still played with me in the end.hahahahahas.the joy of children.i wana have 2 next tyme.i say b4 rite?lols.esther jie gave me some clothes.wa....damn mature cann?i look lyk a workin woman when i wear it sia..........mayb next tyme?hope i can keep my figure..........*licks fingers thinkin abt chocolates,cheese,chicken skin,fried food.*and tings tt i bought recently r all pink..i juz realised it.my dress,bag,shoe,nail polish..all pink.lols.i'm pinkie this yr.wahahahahas.and i got bullie while playin gb. =( all dt de sia.sadded.duno y,but darrdarrhh calls it rape. -_-" but i meet some nice ppl as well.and it seems lyk i aim better when i have a encouraging team. =))its late.nites.
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
11:51 PM
Friday, December 02, 2005
omg.i'm so sorri tt i stooped down to tt disgustingly childish level in my last entry.i promise i wont do tt agn. =))
so anw,moving on with life,i've found a JOB.actuallie no,my mum found it for me.hahahahas.and my darrdarrhh toos.
went to return the damn dance costume ytd.hahahas.i tink its smelly.cuz its been in the cupboard for lyk ages.mayb its mouldy?hu noes?met up with jess n went for LUNCH.
she damn cute lar i tell u.her life as an indoor salesperson.WHOOS.damn cute.she can actuallie go into the store to take the shoe,come out,and 4get hu's the customer.LOL.cute hor cute hor.
went for lunch with her today toos.she lyk so happy liddat........ -_-"
and i did sth bad.dun wana say. =((
so life has been a bliss for me.it sld have been liddat for verii long.cuz of the bloody dengue la.~!@#$%^&*()_+ lols.and i'm stuck to gb agn.actuallie no,not me.darrdarrhh. -_-" den he complain n complain n complain cuz i rush him out n he lost 300 gold ytd.BOIISS.i bought this DAMN NICE dress ytd.and a bag n shoes today.guess wad?all pink.LOL.my daddie was lyk -_-"tralalalalalalas.i'm happy. =))
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IDreamtOfYouAt.
4:34 PM
