- ii justt needd somee timee. *

i want to dance beside a frozen lake :: where the snowflakes gently fall from the sky :: the hair swaying in the chilly wind :: as the still moments of the winter everning :: is enlightened by me ::

My Contradictions.

- SEVENTEEN yet EIGHTEEN.
- SOPHISTICATED yet SIMPLE.
- WILD yet TAME.
- CRAZY yet NORMAL.
- BITCHY yet KIND.
- SLUTTISH yet DEMURE.
- FRANK yet SHY.
- CHILDISH yet MATURE.
- DEVILISH yet ANGELIC.
- NARCISSISTIC yet SELFLESS.
- CONFUSED yet SURE.
- FICKLE yet CONSISTENT.
- SELFISH yet GIVING.
- FIERCE yet GENTLE.
- ANNOYING yet LOVABLE.
- HEARTLESS yet SENTIMENTAL.
- SCHEMING yet NAIVE.
- LAZY yet HARDWORKING.
- RETARDED yet INTELLIGENT.
- IGNORANT yet KNOWLEDGEABLE.
- UNFEELING yet CARING.
- SLOPPY yet TIDY.
- IMAGINATIVE yet REALISTIC.
- PESSIMISTIC yet OPTIMISTIC.
- INTROVERTED yet EXTROVERTED.

My Loves.

- ME.MYSELF.I.
- MONEY.
- COMPUTER.
- HAND PHONE.
- CAMERA.
- CHILDREN.
- MIRRORS.
- MAKE UP.
- BITCHING.
- GOSSIPING.
- CRITICIZING.
- SLACKING.

My Hates.

- BEING BROKE.
- BEING SCOLDED.
- BEING BACKSTABBED.
- EMPTY VESSELS.
- HYPOCRITES.
- REPEAT OFFENDERS.
- COMPUTER BREAKDOWN.

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I Love You.

We never really noticed each other.
Or at least I never noticed you.
But now you are my fantasy.
My wonderful dream come true.

Your eyes met mine.
And mine met yours.
The story of Sleeping Beauty.
Riding on a horse.

Often I think of you.
And wonder if you think of me.
I just want to be there with you.
Through times of thick and thin.

Many a time I neglected you.
But you never seem to mind.
You're one in a million.
Once in a lifetime.

When you smile.
It's the greatest prize.
I'm in heaven.
I'm in paradise.

When I close my eyes.
I see your face.
The touch of your hands.
And the way you embrace.

If I'm in trouble.
All I need to do is call.
Cause I know you'll be there for me.
I know you'll catch me if I fall.

You shine like a lighthouse.
And you showed me the light.
And then I see that life.
Is not only black and white.

I believe in love.
The everlasting kind.
But true love and lust.
Are separated by a mere thin line.

I love you for who you are.
For everything you say.
And no matter what happens.
You will never be replaced.

So now you know my feelings for you.
Is not like eating jam and toast.
Our fairytale is full of love.
It's called Amor Infinitus.

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c0pyyrighttedd ; [-gabrielle-]

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Tuesday, June 21, 2005

since i'm so into the topic of 'humans', i just remembered another 'case'.which refers greatly to the females only.

if u're not interested,the X button is on the top to ur right. =))

this tyme,the child is normal.but u are not.as in,somehow u got ill or u're not strong enough to have a child.how would you react?

for me,it depends.if i'm certain that sth bad will happen to me during my pregnancy,i will abort my child.i'm the bad guy agn right?hear me out.

there was this particular case tt i remember vividly.this lady was a diabetic.her husband just passed away when she found out tt she was pregnant with her 1st child.her doctor told her that if she insist on the pregnancy,she will lose her sight and get kidney failure.

just as expected,she continued with her pregnancy.i can understand why.because the baby is innocent and tt babii is the only 'zhong liu'[heir] of her late husband.for any normal woman,tt is the basic instinct.

but that lady has a condition.a condition tt does not favour her pregnancy.she is a verii bad diabetic and her medical bills are already abit too much for her to handle.wad more if u add a delicate life in?

it's not the money.it's the life.any mother will pull thru for their kid.but guess wad?she lost her eyesight when she was 6mths[sumwhere dere.] into her pregnancy.she also got kidney failure at duno how manii mths.

medical bills are goin up,up,up.but no fret!!NKF is there to give subsidies.right?wrong.how much does NKF give to the paitients?they collect all the funds.but do u ppl noe how big their office is?how manii ppl work there?their boss's toilet bowl is made of GOLD.

forget NKF.i'll get there some other day.back to the lady.she gave birth to a healthy babii girl.tt's gd right?it's a happy ending for both mother and child.

actuallie no.for the babii at least.she was made to take up responsibilities of an adult at a tender age of 5.her mother had dialysis twice a week or so.the young 'adult' was forced to cook,clean and take care of her 'unfortunate' mother.

i dare to say tt she does not have a childhood.wad do WE do at the age of 5?probably our mothers had to clean our butts.but tt girl.helpless.alone.with heavy responsibilities.

is the mother great?she was featured on tv tgr with her daughter.her little girl didnt act like a little girl at all.she acted more mature than any one of us.some girls my age dont even know how to cook rice.the simplest of all chores.

it's gd tt she is independent.but wadeva happened to the 'spare a tot for the child' theory?i tot every1 was desperately trying to preach abt 'its a life.' and 'verii pitiful.'?!wadeva happened to tt?

every child wants to be pampered.even though they might not expressed it,but really.even teens lyk us.i get jealous when my mother treats my father with TCL[tender loving care] on the sofa.but i dont show it out.it wud be embarassing right?i noe.i seriously do.

i wonder if tt child has any opportunity to be pampered by her handicapped mother?she probably has to tuck her mother into bed at night.

if tt were to happen to me,i wud abort the child.firstly,it was the pregnancy tt caused her to go blind and have kidney failure.agreed?secondly,spared a tot for the 'innocent' life?does she appear happy to u?

she's cinderella in mordern tymes.i bet u'd curse ur mum if she forced u to clean the whole hse,make all the food and stay with her for the rest of her life.doing nth.just making sure she doesnt bang into the wall or hit the table cuz she's blind.

i dont need to hear ur tots.u listen to urself.i have no right.

there's another case,whereby the mother went into a coma even b4 the precious 1 was born.'so poor ting'. no motherly love.i guess u can reach out the the little 1 right?after all my yaking. =))

unless i can guarantee tt nth seriously will happen to me or my kid,i will abort the child.

i will not take my child as a gambling tingy.life is a gamble,i agree.but what if u are bound to lose?lose big tyme?naturally u'll take the option tt favours u.i'm looking ahead.i will not take risks tt involve my flesh and blood.even with my parents.

i can regain money,property,knowledge,but not lives.once it's gone,it's gone.it's too big a gamble.some ppl tell me 'den lidat u dun give birth la!'

well.i agree.but it's a natural process to reproduce.plus,we have mordern technology to aid us with decisions.if it's a lose-lose situation,y bother to try?

at least if both mother and child are healthy and 'normal',it's easier to nurture the delicate 1.correct?

i mean if mishaps fall on 1 after the critical stage,then it's probably predestined[lyk wad every1 says].but if u can prevent misfortune from preying on u and ur loved ones,y not use the chance to protect those u love?

i have said alot.it's up to u to decipher the information i have provided.

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10:37 PM

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