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i want to dance beside a frozen lake :: where the snowflakes gently fall from the sky :: the hair swaying in the chilly wind :: as the still moments of the winter everning :: is enlightened by me ::

My Contradictions.

- SEVENTEEN yet EIGHTEEN.
- SOPHISTICATED yet SIMPLE.
- WILD yet TAME.
- CRAZY yet NORMAL.
- BITCHY yet KIND.
- SLUTTISH yet DEMURE.
- FRANK yet SHY.
- CHILDISH yet MATURE.
- DEVILISH yet ANGELIC.
- NARCISSISTIC yet SELFLESS.
- CONFUSED yet SURE.
- FICKLE yet CONSISTENT.
- SELFISH yet GIVING.
- FIERCE yet GENTLE.
- ANNOYING yet LOVABLE.
- HEARTLESS yet SENTIMENTAL.
- SCHEMING yet NAIVE.
- LAZY yet HARDWORKING.
- RETARDED yet INTELLIGENT.
- IGNORANT yet KNOWLEDGEABLE.
- UNFEELING yet CARING.
- SLOPPY yet TIDY.
- IMAGINATIVE yet REALISTIC.
- PESSIMISTIC yet OPTIMISTIC.
- INTROVERTED yet EXTROVERTED.


My Loves.

- ME.MYSELF.I.
- MONEY.
- COMPUTER.
- HAND PHONE.
- CAMERA.
- CHILDREN.
- MIRRORS.
- MAKE UP.
- BITCHING.
- GOSSIPING.
- CRITICIZING.
- SLACKING.


My Hates.

- BEING BROKE.
- BEING SCOLDED.
- BEING BACKSTABBED.
- EMPTY VESSELS.
- HYPOCRITES.
- REPEAT OFFENDERS.
- COMPUTER BREAKDOWN.

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Saturday, January 21, 2006


it hurts.
it just fucking hurts.
because i know your misery is partly caused by me.
because i screwed up in life and cant turn back time.
i'm sorry.
i'm truly sorry.
all these words probably dont mean anything anymore.
but all your words hurt me.
and will hurt anyone who loves you.
you are not dejected.
at least not by me.
i cant understand nor feel your pain.
but i have my own set of pain which you cant feel as well.
your post has no relation to me.
but it pierces me.
i dont know why.
my heart just shattered into tiny pieces.
holding back tears didnt seem to work.
they just overflowed.
knowing what you have gone through.
bruises,cuts,pain.
just tears me down further.
i cant do anything.
i'm useless.
all i can do is just read.
its hard to just read and do nothing.
what can i do?
i hope you're better.
i still love you.
i always have.
and always will.
take care.
my dearest sister.



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